it's cold outside, i'm tired, maybe i should go to bed, the painkillers have kicked in, why do the dogs cover the entire heat vent when they lay on it, maybe i'll go have a quick smoke, hot chocolate sounds good...but too much work, what day is tomorrow.

that pretty much covers it

Flying to Dallas this afternoon.

It's going to hit over 40 degrees today, no more planes sliding off the runway.

It's raining, a cold grey rain.

I'll take a shuttle to the C to the A to the AirJet. Better take an umbrella.

that I need to go outside and clean off my truck , then go shovel out the end of the drive where the damn snow plow closed me in :blink:

and how damn cold it is outside that it takes your breath away


and how a good morning Daddy! (text) made me smile

excuse me ?
do you happen to know what time it is ? *smirks*

Damn...I want a glass or two of wine...but I just took a strong pain killer....dammit

Today, my thoughts have been dominated by the future... and preparing for things that may happen. I have been feeling the urge lately to insure that I am indeed headed in the right direction in life. I feel like I am at a fork in the road, with many choices. Among those choices are dark and dangerous woods, treacherous waterfalls ending in deadly, jagged rocks, and rickety bridges with gaping holes over pits of poisonous snakes. But, I know there is also a challenging path that will lead far and high, that will test my resolve but ultimately fulfil my dreams.

Some words and actions from my family, my biggest support system, today have brought the path I am on into higher question in my mind. Am I depending too much on their support to make it to that mark where I can take off on my own? Are they in fact keeping me back from that goal? Is there a way that I have not considered that is a better option?

I need to reflect on all of these questions, I need to look at the direction I have chosen and also look at the other paths that are available. I need to make some big decisions… and soon.

It's beautiful sunny out but numbing cold. the dogs are content and warm...the chickens and baby guineas are busy and enjoying their warm water and sunny spots ....I have a ton of chores to do ....wish I could curl up in a sunny spot

Dreams are...

... how vivid they were, again. How much they said, without saying anything at all. It helped to clear my mind, to refocus me... I still know some changes need made, but I am feeling more confident again.

The power of positive thinking...

... I know everyone’s life goes through ups and downs... and recently mine has been very crazy and stressful. Not bad, not sad... just stressful. I have had a lot on my plate and finding time for the every day things that make life easier has been getting harder and harder.

Well... after a complete breakdown last night, a listening ear, and a pretty long nights reflection, I started to remember a few things I used to do, years ago, when I was having some serious self-esteem trouble. I used to start every morning with affirmations. They were posted on my mirror, in my car, on the front door, the fridge, and the dresser. Everywhere I went I saw positive things about myself and pretty soon I started to think them even when I couldn’t see them.

So... This morning I got up, came to the planet with my cup of coffee, and went to an old thread... inactive for months now... and posted my daily affirmations. I started my day with positive thoughts and what happened today was amazing. I had a wonderful day at work, I didn’t feel stressed, overwhelmed, or frustrated even in difficult situation. I came home and finished a task I have been trying unsuccessfully to complete for over two weeks, I had a wonderful conversation with a friend, and I ended my evening with a smile.

I needed a swift kick to get myself in gear, but whatever it took… I am very thankful for the power of positive thinking.

I'm going to a women's lunch meeting at our new Church today, and i'm really nervous. I have a VERY hard time going alone to new places/events, and even though the Chuch family has been the most welcoming folks we have ever encountered in a Church anywhere, my fear is nearly overwhelming.

I must push through this fear, i must.:praying:

http://www.theguardian.com/commentis...ction-inhumane
:|

My car's been sitting in the driveway for 3 days now in way sub zero weather while Ive been playing word games and posting on BFP. Tonight it's dropping to -27. Ive an early appointment in the morning. I'm worried it wont start though I suppose it's too late to start worrying now.:praying:

I am thinking how ironic life is or is it the Gods and Goddesses testing my staying power once again. When I had all the free time in the world I was single it was not funny. Now my part time job has officially turned to fulltime plus. Which would be no big deal usually but then throw into the mix that said job is on graveyard and 10 or 12 hour shifts. All grand and don't get me wrong I am more than grateful to have the job. Now the ironic part is I am no linger single as my status and flirting obviously makes clear. I am one lucky bastard to have the two special women that I do in my life (yes they know about each other for those wondering). However both of them if course work first shift which normally compliments graveyard bcs we are sleeping. Yet with the longer shifts I work my schedule is get up eat get ready go to work. Now that my life is falling into place I sure don't want to loose either of them due to this crazy schedule. So life is ironic it seems to be nothing on any front or all fronts are hitting me at once.

On my mind...sleep ...sleep was not successful last night ...

Craving