Sleepy and busy. Bad combination

Determined but unfocused.

Now if I can just get myself to determined and focused I will be in much better shape.

Germany 2, Canada 0 in women's soccer....how do you think I feel????? lol

After your team lost, did they call the Germans "cowards" like Solo did when the USA lost?

At least you don't have to be ashamed of your fellow citizens. :|

Ever nice and polite, we just shed a lil tear, congratulated the winners, and then went and beat the crap out of our goalie in the locker room. lol

Well, I went to my rheumatologist today and chatted about my other recent doctor visits. That was fun *rme* only to be told that they want me to go and see yet another doctor and discuss/schedule another surgery. Sure why not...I'm currently looking at two..what's one more? Noooooo problem!

It was an okay day, but....
 

...I'm having a terrible evening. I just can't seem to get it completely together no matter what I do. Always seems like I'm a day late and a dollar short. Now I have to scramble to make things work and it becomes a vicious never-ending cycle of crazy.

And what really pisses me off is how completely oblivious some people are. I'm walking out the door of a public building this evening and I didn't see this young girl behind me. I let go of the door and out of the corner of my eye I see her speeding to the door (if she hadn't bolted it wouldn't have slammed in her face and she was close enough that I would have waited and held it until she got there. Had I seen her). Anyway, she speeds up to get to the door - head buried in a cell phone the entire time - and I practically broke my neck doing a 180 degree turn to grab the door so it doesn't hit her in the face because I had let go of it.

Put your fucking arms out you little fuckwit! I'm not your goddamn concierge, Cupcake - I was just trying to be polite, but you need to do the work. Meet a person halfway, you know what I'm saying? The old me would have let her get smashed and I would have been waiting for her to give me some lip so I could brawl. lol, but not the new me. The new me just wishes people would get their heads out of their phones and attain some goddamn self-awareness. Get a fucking clue, ass clowns.

Okay, so the transgression was minor but I am just having a really bad day. Sue me. Better yet - don't sue me; just give me a hug. I could really use one.



Oh yeah, and I also forgot to add that my bank card and one of my books have gone missing.

Irritated and disappointed in myself. If I could kick my own ass I would.

Apparently, I don't read threads carefully enough to have realized I wandered into a thread with a secret handshake and whatnot ...so I will repost yesterday's annoyance before updating:

I have tried very hard today to not lose My temper with someone. Hy does not know where hys safety deposit key is or hys bank card. BUT hy thinks that hys birth certificate must be lost and hy had a social security card and can't find it. But hy knows hys number. I spent far too much of My time today on the phone with various people trying to solve hys problems. Said various people informed Me that hy has to make these calls... that I cannot make them for hym...which I suspected. Perhaps this is why the babybutch has not grown up yet. Maybe because every time hy has an issue, someone else helps hym and bails hym out.

Today's Saga: Part II: After several calls from hym today, hy still can't find the safety deposit box key and has to pay to have the box re-drilled with a new key or some such thing. I think when you get a safety deposit box they WARN you that you should not lose the key... because in the bank's words "It will cost you." ....I mean seriously when a bank that has lots of money says something is going to "cost you" ... I would believe them and not lose the dang key.

Hy also has no clue where hys papers and important belongings are. They could be in the safety deposit box. Or they could be gone. Lost.

I am flipping through the Dominant handbook to see when it is appropriate to strangle a submissive and for how long.

contemplative.... very, very contemplative....

I am feeling... uncertain.

Sleepy and groggy

rested...
and joyful....
loved and deeply cherished....
courageous and grateful....


the carpe will diem...
with brains in my head...
and feet in my shoes...
a grateful heart has nothing to lose
just all to gain...
over and over again...
share with the world around me...
how strength has grown...
the dark clouds have moved...
my resilience and strength has risen and a rainbow is showing.

ME too....



I'm feeling a bit melancholy...

Pretty stressed out... :whine:

I was feeling pretty good until I remembered that I forgot to buy Sadie's food while I was out melting in the sunshine & heat earlier. This means I have to go back out, but at least traffic has died down and the sun is soon to set. I must love her a lot! :dog:

Pleased I my paperwork was accepted (well maybe, I have to call tomorrow to confirm then proceed to the next step) and I was only sent away with one flag rather than 30....Yea!

Rude people bother me. As do liars. Especially when they are subtle about it. so I have a small part of me that is aggravated. But we live and learn so a bigger part of me shrugs it off.


Otherwise I feel a little sleepy But my mood is overall good.


Happy mixed with sadness that this is my daughters last year of school. Time flies.

Confused and excited.

Feeling
 

I feel very happy and excited.

:dance2:

I'm feeling super duper glad about the fact that tomorrow is Friday. :D

Summer is almost over, but I'm enjoying our latest heatwave by slowly devouring a small pint of Lemon Perfection Custard -- which is sooooo incredibly delicious.

Which, helps me to feel amazingly good.

I mean, I'm allergic to heat waves and creamy milk products, but it just tastes so good. So, I'm feeling pretty good (which is simply amazing!).

:eyebat:

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Very good. No mad deadlines and can spend the morning getting organized at work (update spreadsheets, write out some new processes, maybe even reorganize some drawers/files). Might even be able to take a long lunch, get a car wash, and buy a couple gift cards for folks who've had my back over the last couple crazy work months.

:bow:

Glad it's Friday!

I feel good. I finished accomplishing a goal so I am feeling hopeful.

I also have some new goals..... Fun ones. :)

Excited to see my family but in a lot of pain from an arthritis flare up!! And worrying over my spouse and her health issues.......

Like I can't wait to go home today, funny that I get the same feeling now as when I was a child and knew that I had something waiting for me at home
Happy excited and impatient sums it up

A little disappointed in someone I thought was all about fairness and decency.

:blah:

Like this....
 

Miserable about a possibly failing relationship T_T

Good and a little tired. Glad to be home with little to do over the next couple days.

Reluctantly pensive. I love being "on" but I need to sit down, read, think and work out some things. I'm so good at sitting on the fence, but sitting on the fence can hinder growth and delay progress.

A lil ...bleh! Lil too much of this AMAZING carrot cake.

Painsomnia can suck it, been up since 4 am and would love to sleep.
~SAB

I really wish I could sleep. Lack of sleep is seriously impairing my productivity.

I feel like I have grown. I am here, visiting with my ex, chatting, laughing, supporting one another. Not a single bad emotion. If what was so nasty and hate filled can be repaired to supportive and kind, I can surely work the same magic in areas that are not nearly as bad in my life.