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I am really proud of myself. I started back to school September 1st, and just getting started wasn't all that easy. Since I got back I have finished one and a half courses already. I should be done with 3 by the end of October... that means I will have earned 9 credits in just 2 months!!! Yep, I can do this.

I am also thinking a lot about the future right now, about what I really want, about how that is going to look, about who I want to bring with me on this epic journey of life... and how much I am willing to do to make that happen.

I am watching the democratic debate... and I really love Bernie Sanders...

I'm thinking how every last one of us is broken or cracked or chipped in some way. From the day we find this world, we accumulate all the little nicks and marks that make us who we are. Some things are bearable and some things are abhorrent and beyond comprehension. If we're lucky, we find others who complement our idiosyncrasies and make our lives better. If we're not so lucky, life can be pretty tough and maybe even lonely. The new year's only a quarter away. I wonder what it holds and what and who it will bring and whether they will enrich my life or create more nicks. The future's wind open to interpretation.

umm,well,I can't think beyond today..i'm here,that counts for something.I think i'm still here for a reason.Right now,tomorrow is like a million miles away..and I can't walk that long..or more like,I can't wait that long.Time passes too fast,there is no guarantee i'll be here one hour from now,most likely I will be,but still,that is not a sure thing because life is like that..one minute you are here and the next minute,you're dead.So I take a thousand chances..everyday and everynight.Is life fun?..no,more like,Life is what you make it..but don't wait too long.

:titantic:..Someday,my iceberg will come..

Spending time with my g/f and her kids coming up on Monday!

Hoping our relationship can get past this slump.

I was petting my cat with my feet, as I often do, and I was wondering if other people do that, too? Or is that the height of laziness?

:bucktooth:

I was so sick yesterday, tummy bug to the max. I feel better today and have a very long to do list. PLUS, a friend coming over for dinner... it's going to be a very busy day.

the sound is grey, this morning..winter is coming..

I am still trying to understand what a customer said to me. While doing a facial on her, she starts asking me about my pup. No one other than my friends and my ex, knew we had put a Santa dress on my pup. She stated telling me howy dog loves to be dressed up and how much she loves to be babied. This really hit home, since this incident occurred during our first Christmas together. It's such a powerful memory, that I just want to cry.

Zimmeh

I hate the fact I cant get her off my mind... From morning to might shes all I think about..

The iPad Pro.

I think I'm gonna get the iPad Air 2 because 1) I can buy an iMac desktop for the price of the iPad Pro (with accessories) :seeingstars:, and 2) I can open iPad Pro Adobe Photoshop Fix files on my desktop, but cannot open my Adobe Photoshop Creative Suite on the iPad Pro.

I'm almost certain I'll get the iPad Air 2 because the iPad Pro isn't giving me what I want for the bucks.

That, work, and lunch is on my mind.

I have been really upset for the last day or so. I didn't really put together why until this morning. I woke up and there were two things on my mind. The one thing that is always on my mind when I wake these days... and an article I read from the New York Times yesterday.

It seems that some people continue to move backwards even as the world moves forwards. The Mormon church has set new guidelines on how to deal with "the gays" and now they are going against their OWN teachings to do it. Its no longer enough to shun our community, to spend large amounts of money to try and rid us of our rights, or to excommunicate their own members just for supporting us. NOW, they have to attack our children.

New LDS standards state that all same sex couples are to be excommunicated from the church AND that their children MAY NOT JOIN the church until they are 18 years old, and then only if they no longer live with their same sex parents. SO... let me get this right... shall I quote the scriptures that are in opposition to this? (maybe just one)

Deuteronomy 24:16 - The fathers shall not be put to death for the children, neither shall the children be put to death for the fathers: every man shall be put to death for his own sin.

BUT... don't even get me started on what this does for LGBT people who were born into the church, who have tried for so long to live as they were taught. How do you come out as a mother when you are told that if you do not only will YOU be punished, but your CHILDREN will suffer? You don't. This is going to take us back DECADES. A lesbian mom who is just now realizing after 5 or 10 years of marriage who she is will not leave. She will not embrace who she is. She will stay in that unhealthy marriage. She will lie to her husband and her family. She may even have an affair. This will lead to depression, self loathing, and even suicide.

This is not a solution, it doesn't help anyone. Not the church, and certainly not the LGBT population that they have already admitted don't have a choice about who they are. I am so angry, so disturbed, and so sad. This outdated view of love and family is outrageous. They do not punish the children of unwed mothers, or drug abusers, or even divorcees. All of whom, by their own admission, have more choice in their sins then I do.... BUT, my daughter... will not be allowed to go to church with her grandmother... as she has for years... because I love differently then them.

"Never try to fuck up someone's life with a lie, when your own can be destroyed with the truth" (by some wise old soul)

On my mind today is how people are freaking out about Donald Trump's comments on databases for Muslims. It is being called unAmerican, a breach of our values, ethics and what we stand for, and profiling.

Apparently the Patriot Act has become so much a part of us, that we dont even recognize when its tenets are being used to condition us to feel one way or another, depending on who wants us to feel this way or that way.

The gist of the Patriot Act was just to formalize and extend "intelligence" stuff under the guise of "national security". Prior to this, we still did it but we didnt talk about it.

It is the digital age. Everything is in a database. Our financial records are scrutinized to make sure we arent doing anything illegal like laundering money for this or that. We cant buy sudafed without it being entered into a database to make sure we arent making crack. Our use of electricity is monitored in case we are using too much cuz we are growing marijuana in our basement. Our purchase of fertilizer is monitored in case we have some evil bomb intent. Our library activity is being monitored in case we are taking out "materials deemed to be of concern". Pick up narcotics at the pharmacy and they scan your license so it goes into a narcotics watch database. I'm sure there is even a database now for flying schools to make sure all student pilots are intent on actually landing the plane.

We have databases for everything. Travel, shopping histories, religious and political affiliations, cell phone use and content, social media content, computer content, search engine topics, GPS tracking...name it and there is a database for it. And, the info gathered is used to make even more databases depending on what the government decides it needs to keep track of and why.

We take the data. We manipulate it. We analyze it. We crunch numbers and make projections (or assumptions and presumptions) and policy emerges. All under the guise of "national security".

How did we make and maintain a no fly list? How does the FBI decide who makes their terrorist watch list? How did we identify the Boston marathon "persons of interest" just from video footage? How did the French know to extend their search for bombing suspects to Belgium? How do we know whether to raise or lower the terror threat colors?

Databases. For everything. Checked. Cross referenced.

Trump didnt invent this. Been going on long before 9/11 too.

Today, Diane Feinstein discussed legislation to strengthen the visa waiver program and prohibit those on terror watchlists from buying firearms or explosives. This is weird. We are concerned about national security but people on the terror watchlists can still buy firearms and explosives? But TSA freaks out about a normal sized bottle of shampoo? There is a disconnect here.

If databases are so unAmerican, a breach of our values and ethics, and profiling, why does the government make them in the first place? If this is all true, then why do citizens embrace the tactics in one situation and denounce them in another? Either they are problematic or they arent. What does it mean when we resort to context in order to decide if something is valid or legitimate? Who determines which context is ok and which isnt and on what basis is THAT decided? How do we know when we are reacting or overreacting to the messenger rather than the message?

Sometimes, it is a relief to be on the downside of life. The days of dealing with nonsense and bullshit is limited.

Finding out that I have been taking a certain medication the wrong way, for years. Now i know why i don't sleep at night.

Trying to figure out how to survive my moms last minute visit. I feel my blood pressure going up already.

netlix's "rush", season 4, episode 7. heartwrenchin'...

who else has forgotten to time the broiler so the marshmallows don't burn. Oh my gawd, they were flaming! Lucky, the burn crispy part came right off..lol

Well, that's my story I get to tell now..lol

Thinking about our generation..

Most of us on here started with the beginning of social media. How we had screen names. We surfed the web. Engaged in chat rooms. Opened up our lives, our hearts. Some even lied and conned. We formed relationships. Healthy or not, we participated. Some met and had real life interactions. Many found love, friendships and others found bad experiences. It seems to have been a huge part of our lives.

Unfortunately, we are now faced with the loss of these relationships. We might have never met in real life. Perhaps it was relationships via emails, texts, or an occasional post and comments. The loss is still as painful as if we actually had real time.

It's interesting how we are now entering the next " life zone" of our social media generation.