On my mind
 

This house and land. I built this house 12 years ago and have lived here from the begining. My life has been down many paths in the last 12 years. The constant is this house. I lost my dad, my best friend, and a few relationships while living in this house. My baby kitty has lived in this house her entire life.

There have been so many parties in this house for every occasion and for no occasion at all. My family and friends have spent many weekends here. There is love, happiness, and great memories in this house.

This house is my home and my refuge from the world. I love this house.

:cowboy:

Regrets
 

Is it possible to hurt and be hurt by someone over and over again and still make it work? Can the trust be repaired? Once she is in my arms I know the past hurts will melt away along with all her fears.
I have loved someone with all my heart since the first time she and I talked 7 years ago. It wasn't even love at first sight but love at first words. She still makes my stomach do the flips. We both have had relationships since then but no one compares for either one of us. What's even crazier is we have not yet met.
That is where the title comes in, I regret not suiting up and showing up when I should have.
Trust me this time that I will get to you no matter what. Don't disappear on me please.
We can do this right this time.

I am lucky that My babygrl has such a close friend in you..

She is very special and i treasure her....

I absolutely agree

I love you too babygrl

That life is feeling pretty overwhelming right now....

Lost a very close friend to cancer & have taken on the role of taking care of her 7 children for a bit whilst her hubby can gather himself & get back in the saddle of life ......

It has me feeling mentally & physically exhausted, I wouldn't change it but phew 7 children? Puts the cray in crazy......

Listening to my "Witching Hour" mix on Spotify and thinking about what all I have on my plate for the next several weeks.

Feeling optimistic and happy while also wanting it to hurry, hurry.

On my mind
 

Reality.

Vacation is almost over and soon I will be back to working hard for the environment.

It is a good reminder to live in reality.

On my mind
 

I am thinking about next year's vacation. I want to see more nature so maybe upstate NY and Maine.

I feel bad about excluding the west cost but most of my dear friends are located northeast.

I need more time off, more money, and more friends in the west. Haha!

:carride: :flying:

Washing Machine Hoses
 

When I moved to my new fabulous spot recently, two months ago recently, the movers made a mess of the entire ordeal. It was the worse move of my life really. Aside from broken everything to intimidation to over charged, they hooked up my washer hoses backwards. I am not very mechanically inclined nor did I think I cared that much but I do damnit and I want my hot and cold water where they should be so, putting on my butch hat and boots LoL I'm going to fix that fucker myself. I'm on my way out there to climb all over that washing machine and I'm not coming out till it's put right. Stupid stupid boys.

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Again, what am I.. chopped liver?

That a death of someone can really bring out the ugly of people.... I'm feeling feeling confused, frustrated & frankly seriously concerned because when you're a parent, you're responsible for the lives you create...You don't just suddenly stop being a parent because life has slapped you in the face...There is no excuses you just do what needs to be done, you pick yourself up & you be there for your children that desperately need a solid figure in their lives... Saddened by everything that surrounds me at the moment & not really sure how to help the situation... :praying:

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Well then, Photobucket no longer allows linking to images with a free account. Ok fine. Giphy does.

Aaaaaand, I can't untwist the hoses. They're twisted on with the jaws of death I think. *sighs*