Whether to risk things and follow what I want in life or to stay put, work forever and miss out on taking a chance, whether i lose it all or not.

Life is really, really short JDeere, too short to live with regrets. :bunchflowers:

I get anxious about school and have to constantly remind myself that I voluntarily signed up for this and it is temporary. Good lord... This current class has been intense and fast and soooo involved. But it is all good stuff. And with my field placement starting in a few months, with those 18 hours a week on top of my normal 50+ work hours and a class, I HAVE GOT to stop panicking myself. I know I will be fine and do well, but this ridiculous overwhelming feeling can be well... overwhelming sometimes.

I want to buy a welding machine right now. I have been reading a couple of welding books and have done a tremendous amount of research about them. I need to wait a little longer, make sure I get the one that will meet my needs without overkill. Think I will now begin putting in some calls to welders, get their collective opinions. This is going to be a real kick in the pants! Heh Heh!! Can barely wait for the fun to begin! Seriously, it will be so useful around here where I have lived the past three years. So many times a labor-saving project came to a standstill and I thought, "if only I had a welder ... "

I agree. However I just don't want to lose my family because of my choice of women. Plus i was told if i move out, im not allowed to come back.

Breathe. It will be over before you know it and when you're done it will have been so worth it!

On my mind
 

About 19 years ago I was in a committed relationship with an athlete. She was mostly a triathlon athletic. OMG, it was so much work for me. I had to get up early prepare her food and drinks, load the bikes, and her gear. Set up when we got to the event. Pump her up to do her best. And run around with a camera to catch her events.

One triathlon I wore myself out preparing her so she had to drive us home. Haha!

:fastcycling:

One race I found a beer tent, haha! That was the best race for me. :cowboy:

J - not even 3 months into it says she's experiencing morning sickness. I was fortunate and only had it for about six weeks total with my first son, not that early, and even then only the first three weeks of it were brutal. With my second I never had it at all. I hope this isn't a sign of an difficult pregnancy ahead capped off by a long, drawn out, excruciating labor. :praying:

I had to have my best buddy put to sleep this morning...my 17 year old tuxedo kitty. He was the sweetest, most gentle little cat that I have ever known. He had cancer, and his quality of life was diminishing rather quickly. As excruciating as it was to make the decision, it was time.

This was my first experience at having to have a pet euthanized, so I wasn’t exactly sure what to expect. I was relieved at how peaceful it was and how quickly it went. He has always let me hold him on his back and cuddle him like a baby, and that is just how he went today...wrapped up in his fuzzy blanket, having his fur stroked. As soon as the vet administered the meds, his soft little head slowly fell over and rested on my chest. Couple of kisses on top, and that was it. He was at peace.

I am going to miss him terribly...already do, but I am so very glad that I had that sweet, little fuzz muffin in my life.

CherryWine, my heart broke reading your post. I am so sorry. The worst experience is the lose of a dear friend kitty.

Contact me if it would help you, I will be thinking of you.

I'm so very sorry. I've been there. It's so hard, even when you know it's what is right. I'll be thinking of you.

I'm so sorry for your loss. I teared up reading this, it's so hard to say goodbye to our little friends.

The upcoming work week!

Hopefully shit will be together so we xan start this project.

I went shopping today and saw one of those people who stand by the roadside waving a huge sign, to make ppl come in and buy whatever the business sells. I felt bad for them because its such a thankless job and its probably not a well paid job. I couldnt help but think of all the ppl who struggle just to earn a living, myself included. I didnt see them out there on my way back home, but i did see a homeless vet by the freeway exit. I gave him some money $$ and a bottle of water i had in the car console. Everytime i see somebody like either of them, i always think of my two sons. Life can be so unfair, and hard.

As a fellow cat lover, I have had many pass
to Summerlin including a 22 year old diabetic cat. I'd like to tell that it gets easier, but it doesn't. Each being is unique, and your love for them is based on their individuality.
May Bast watch over and guide you through the path to acceptance and on to tranquility. May you always keep the fond memories.
---fox

I would just like to thank all of my friends here for their thoughts, prayers, healing energy and light following my now 9th total knee revision replacement surgery. I am now 6 days post op and things have been going extremely well, so far.

I am up and getting around with my walker really well. My dressing is of the "waterproof" variety, so I've been able to shower on my own. I also can get up and down on my own, or with just a little assistance. I'm able to even fix myself a tasty bagel or a good sandwich and carry it back to my recliner. In short.....I got this!!!! 👍🏻

So, once again, THANK YOU!!!

~Theo~ :bouquet:

July 1... Canada Day!

I'm going to go out and wave a few Canadian flags, watch teenagers run around with large flags draped over their shoulders, sing a few heartfelt bars of "Oh Canada", and eat some Canadian bacon on a bun.
Then I'll go home, put my flags away and wait for next year. It's the Canadian way...lol

Work

Wondering if i should proceed with trying to pursue her again