When I was a child, I ran away from home and no one noticed. All that sobbing, walking across the bridge into down town, like a pathetic waif, and no one noticed. (pooooor me!) The desired result was *not* facilitated! :)

For two years, I have been seeking to obtain a job that pays more and has better benefits. One where I don't have to drive 400 miles or more per week. One that has some kind of retirement benefit. With all the interviews, I can't seem to make it to the final offer. I don't understand what I'm doing wrong. Do I want it too much or not enough? Is there ever going to be something for me?

Sadie has made almost a complete adjustment to her new home with us. She hops on our laps, plays fetch with her toys (and the cats'), sleeps in our bed, and leaps for joy when we come home. The cats are starting to relax around her, too.

It's gratifying to see my younger daughter doing so well in school this year. She's finishing up her final half year, so she can get her h.s. diploma. Then she will go into a college program for young adults with mild developmental disabilities. It's amazing that she's come so far. I remember all the years of uncertainty, especially concerning her health.

I still find it disconcerting to see certain people on Facebook (friends of friends) who used to be bullies. My bullies. Now they live normal lives with their children and spouses, and I wonder how they can even raise healthy, functional kids. What do they know about life that they didn't know then? Are their kids bullies, too?

Random Thangs
 

5 things...
 

In no particular order
 

I enjoy eating with chopsticks

I can't swim - yet

I hate small talk but really love meaty conversation

Picnic, the verb. Best thing there is.

I really like quiet

1. I am really hard on myself when it comes to personal goals.

2. I love bath time so much i have been known to take 4 or 5 in a day.

3. I would rather go without coffee... then have bad coffee.

4. When it snows... I always try and walk barefoot and naked (except a cloak) through the snow in the moonlight... its calming, and grounding...

5. I tell all my students its important to do one weird or crazy thing a day, it keeps your mind open to any possibilities.

that last onereminded me of alice in wonderland....when she says "Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast."

my 5 things ...

1. i cant live without candycane hot chocolate in the winter
2. im devoted to my advocacy for human rights..
3. im practicing reiki ...i want to help heal my loved ones ...nobody should have to live with cronic pain...
4. i love bath products from lush....even if im not the one using them
5. id rather sit at home with my family...and friends...having a small get together...than go out to a party or a club

Fabulous five...
 

I practice doing most things with only one hand in case I lose the other. Although absolutely left-handed (except golf and the guitar)...I am now quite ambidextrous.

I am afraid of only snakes and can not even bring myself to touch them in books. Forget watching a Tarzan movie where inevitably an anaconda will drop from the trees onto some poor, unsuspecting safari-goer.

I like spam and jelly sandwiches...but it can only be apple jelly.

If I eat a candy bar I will sometimes put the wrapper in my shoe and walk around with it in there all day. It is sorta like it is my little secret.

When my cat talks to me (which is all the time)...I always pretend she is telling me how stunningly beautiful I am and carry on that conversation until she tires of it and seeks sanity in another room.

1. I'm in art school in my early 40's

2. I call my dog "Muffin Head", don't ask me why!

3. I have 4 tattoos

4. I'm experiencing my first Christmas as a single person in 22 years

5. This upcoming year (2012) I'm planning a trip to Greece with my 16 year old daughter

Another five:
I don't have or watch television. With the exception of a miserable six years living with a long-ago ex, I haven't had a television since I left my parent's house at 17. That was, um, a long time ago.

The list of foods I can eat has probably become shorter than the list of foods I can't eat.

The sight of oatmeal can actually make me gag.

I've never belonged to a gym.

If I ever become so disabled that I can no longer ride motorcycles, I've told all my friends to just pull the plug.

I have a rare blood disorder, the two main bad things about it- makes my blood vessels overreact to the cold making me get colder faster, and the biggy- if I get cold and my body temp drops even a degree or two my blood (abnormal proteins and antibodies in it) starts to gel... yes gel. So I can't stay warm on my own well and if I get cold I can die, the in between state just is slightly painful.

I play guitar when I'm stressed, and I play a lot around the holidays- too much hubbub around shopping etc., which I love, shopping that is,,, just not holiday shopping, the crowds and the florescent lights in the stores drive me batty.

I love old style decor, not old timey, not mod but real old style, Victorian etc. etc. and deplore modern eg: a white cube with a piece of glass on it for a table... ew, abrasive to the soul (my apologies to those with such decor, just not my style at all ;)

I'm a misanthropist, though make no mistake those close to me have my total love, loyalty and adoration... it's all those idiots out there I can't stand... heh.

I once was arrested for riding my motorcycle atop a block wall, onto a bank building and jumping down on a berm on the other side in downtown. They couldn't catch me but arrived later at my house where I saw them out the window feeling the engine of my bike for warmth... they said the recognized me by my black leather pants, I fought it in court based on that but lost.

I held funerals for my dolls as a child, and buried them in my mother's flower beds. Hmmmm

I have blue green color blindness. Because I changed the rods and cones in my eyes by wearing purple, yes purple tinted lenses in the 70s.

I was a disco queen. No shit. Honest to god. And was damn good at it. I had people lined up all night wanting to dance with me.

I absolutely hate to dance now, except of course when i am hallucinating in a sleep clinic study. Then I belly dance and do my best to engage "my friends" to join me.

As a child, i was an alien cow one year and the "wow factor" was that I came from Udder Space...

1. I'm very laid back. (like a lounge chair)
2. I'm shy when I first meet you.
3. I love disaster movies.
4. I like R and B
5. I sometimes do karaoke.

I love Ella Fitgerald's singing.

I always wanted kids and all I have are angels.

My happy place is outside, listening to the wind in the trees.

I learned to talk at 11 mo's and have an outstanding IQ.

I'm have issues with authority, and anger -- my own or others -- makes me emotional/want to cry. (This sucks as a woman in the workplace. LOL.)

Awwww Clay...had no idea I was one of your little known facts!!!

well buddy....the secret is out now...lmao...damn...so busted...lol