I am sorry to hear Sylvie that you are experiencing such a rough week. Sometimes between our own 'stuff' and the other 'stuff' life hands us, we don't always know which way to go. Triggers suck and food is not the enemy. Stay motivated, as best you can. If you don't, we both know that our internal critic will wreak havoc on our gentle souls. Be kind to yourself, above all things, be kind and have compassion.

I know there is little I can say to ease you, but know I am thinking of you. I am rooting for you. And I am sorry you are losing a person you deeply love. I am glad she is not taking treatment, I think that is wise at 88. Love her as long as you have her, and love her with warm memories after she is gone.

As always, with love and hugs

Foxy

This post is so wonderfully important in all things we use to keep us down.

Somewhere, someone told us that only successful people are good and wonderful and failures are pieces of crap and our brains believed it. When you trip, the thoughts come. You know, the ones you have calling yourself names and telling you to just forget the whole thing.

Tell those thoughts to fuck. that. shit. and you will be well on your way to gaining control.

You have to remember that NO ONE ever gets to the top without tripping, several times...


*Hugs* *Hugs* *Hugs* to all of you working your way through this. I know, it is the hardest thing I have ever done.

But is it really a bunch of fake ass affiimations or are you just being hard on yourself?


We are so HARD on ourselves... That need to be perfect... To follow the plan in our heads to the letter and if we don't or can't then what does that say about us...

Did the word *Loser* pop into your head? Weak? Lazy?

What does the tape in your head tell you? Is it you talking to you or is it the tape of other peoples voices talking?

My tape says... *You keep going... no matter what..... keep putting one foot in front of another*
There is no other option but to pull yourself up by your own bootstrings and keep going.....
No matter how hurt/damaged/crippled you are... keep on going....

My tape lies...

I'm sorry for the derail, this isn't about weight loss per say... But Pinkies post made me think about the last three months of my life...

Dec 1,2011 I got fired from a job that I thougth was going to be the last job I ever had...
I became so obsessed with not making a mistake, that I made a mistake and then made an even bigger one trying to fix the first one...
By trying so hard to be perfect, there was no way to be anything but imperfect.

Dec 3,2011 My brother was murdered...

I broke.... My boots didn't have any strings any more....

I tried... but I couldn't get through an interview without talking about my brother and tearing up... Ya... WINNING....

I was in a black hole and I just wanted to pull it in after me... but I couldn't because you have to fight... ALWAYS....

I didn't start to get better until I stopped fighting so hard....
until I started being a bit more gentle with myself...

I started to bribe myself instead of beat myself up...

Instead of calling myself lazy because I slept all day and didn't do anything but put on a robe and play castleville,
I told myself...
you can have a nap if you leave the house...
Doesn't matter if it's a 12 hour nap as long as you leave the house...
you can't sleep until you do it...

I stopped trying to find full time perm work...
I signed up with a tem agency and did housekeeping and banquet service...
After a couple of weeks of bribing myself to go to work with a NAP!!!!!!
(You don't go to work, you can't sleep the day away, you go to work, work five hours and you can sleep as long as you want....)
I accepted a short term (four months) full time positon doing data entry...
No real thought required... just key in the name and size.

Last week I only took two naps... This week one....

Last week I started walking on my lunch half hour instead of sitting in my car reading...
While I was walking I saw two things that made me wish for my camera...

Today I repaired a lamp and started a painting...

I haven't really painted in five years...

I still have bad days... keying away with tears streaming down my face... hiding away in a book or a game so I don't have to deal... walking around with headphones on so I don't have to interact with anyone... I think the worst part right now is seeing a job that I would like to have/go after, but knowing that I'm not capable of rejoining the dog eat dog world...At THIS time.... (I think I need to be capable of cleaning the house before I can hold down the kind of jobs that interest me...)

But... I feel better..... this being gentle with myself, being softer with my percieved flaws...
It seems to be pushing me farther than beating myself up for not being *STRONG* enough to just do what I know needs to be done...

It feels like I'm winning by giving in....

Just got home from the gym. Im feelin the pump!!!!
I seem to be in a slump right now......but...I am not gaining any weight so that is good.
Glad to see everyone is doing a great job in here!!!
Happy saturday y'all.

Random,

Giving you a hug is not nearly enough for your willingness to be so open and honest to the bone here but I am giving you a tight one anyway.

I can't even imagine the pain of the loss of your brother. My condolences, truly.

The loss of your brother, along with the loss of your job at the same time, is hard for me to fathom. I think you are absolutely amazing to have dealt with all of it.

Your sharing your tape loop is so appreciated and yes, it does belong in this thread! I believe that each of us that struggle with our weight have our own individual loops. As I shared in my last post, I have my own. One recurring word in my own endless loop is always indeed "loser" and not in the positive, losing weight, sort of meaning.

Your own behavior modification program is also an excellent idea! Allowing ourselves a break or giving ourselves permission about anything is very difficult but I also believe that until we stop berating, punishing and critizing each and everything we do, we won't succeed at the very thing we want to accomplish so badly; regardless if it is losing weight or just getting out of bed each day when dealing with overwhelming loss.

Of course, for many of us-myself included-that ability to turn off the tape, and to reprogram it with a new and kinder message; is the most difficult of all to accomplish! I do work on turning off that old tape, probably 50 times a day lately but do succeed at least half the time. I will focus on the glass half-full, rather than half-empty! These days, for me, half of the time is the very best that I can do.

I am still dealing with cravings but it is getting better. Talk about tapes! If I start to thing about something I want to eat (meaning anything with sugar) it is almost impossible to stop thinking about for me. I have resisted for at least 5-6 days, maybe a week ( lost track of time/days) and it is getting better.

Thanks for sharing Random and to everyone that comes into this thread to be so open and honest to help not only themselves but to help each other.

Long Overdo....
 

* NEWSFLASH*

After gaining nearly 20 lbs back...Guess who got back on Weight Watchers today? :weightshock:

ME

Show me the love peeps...Show me the love!!! :praying:

It has been awhile since I have posted in here and I truly miss it. Between my two jobs, the only day off that I have is Sunday and I'm finding it's hard to motivate myself to exercise. I am no longer participating in our food day at work, since most of the time it is junk food. I brought California rolls and a veggie tray the last time.

I am going to exercise tonight no matter how tired I am, it is something I need to do. I went clothes shopping last Tuesday and I bought my first dress in ten years from New York and Comoany. A dress that I will be bringing with me to LR!

I am still eating as healthy as I can and I'm not gaining any weight and not losing either.

Sylvie, hugs sweetie and hope you had a great weekend with your grandma.

Zimmeh

Today was leg day..... crawled to the car. LoL
Hope everyone had a easy Monday!!

*waves*

Got back on track last week and have already dropped three pounds.

I went off WW a while back; and despite not working any sort of program at all, I only put back on a handful of the pounds I had lost.......I don't know...maybe about 6 total. Not too bad for 3-4 months of misbehaving. ;)

I'm tracking my calories using the food tracker at the USDA site. It helps me remember to balance my diet and eat my veggies.

Wishing you all the best... Gonna go back and read a few pages to see who is doing what! Cheers!!

You are awesome! I love your attitude! Kick it, grrrrl ;)

Finally off work, will be with the daughter in California for the next 5 weeks!
Haven't really had time to check in here lately, and have had a few pounds come crawling home.....

Sitting at the airport, waiting for my first flight, I'm warning y'all now, I will be reading everything (and probably thanking most of) that's been posted for the last 2 weeks, so sorry if it is annoying--it's easy to get back on track, and accept a falter or mis-step in this environment. Not to mention the tips --yes, the ones that had I been stopping in faithfully may have prevented said fall, lol....

Time to get back on track--especially with the exercise!!!

Hellooooooooooooooo All You Beautiful People!

Thanks for showing me the love with getting back on track!

So far this is day #4 and I'm doing pretty well.

I had a wicked stressful day today. I was in expense hell with one of my bosses who has been traveling back and forth to Zurich and London. Needless to say his expenses were a friggon train wreck and I spent 4 miserable hours getting them situated.

By the third hour I started craving bad things due to my stress level. I had 2 twizzlers rather than anything really bad like chocolate. I also didn't get a chance to eat lunch because I wanted to clear up the bad situation and didn't want to take one minute away from my desk. I know it's not good to do that, but I had some fruit on my desk so I ate that. And I said to myself "fuck that, I'm not going to sabotage myself because of Mr. Dickhead waiting until the last minute to give me all his unorganized shit". In any case, I finished everything in a fashionable manner and I overcame the temptation of eating bad and I'm so glad I did!

Dinner was great! Had 3 oz. of chicken breast seasoned nicely on the Foreman and a baked sweet potato. So I'm pretty full right about now.

However, when I start to get hungry later and want to snack, I still have 15 points left, since I was unable to eat breakfast and lunch...Woo hoo!!!

Anyway, it's great to be back in this thread and again, thanks to everyone who welcomed me back with open arms and sent me messages.

Be well!

Best,
Scorp

:byebye:

Scorp's Yummy Omlette...
 

Howdy Folks,

Was looking forward to breakfast for din din tonight and came up with my own omlette concoction I suck at making breakfast so my hot stuff wifey cooked it for me:

- 1/2 cup egg beaters
- 3 slices of turkey bacon (diced up)
- 1 wedge laughing cow french onion cheese
- Cooking Spray (butter flavored)

Pour the egg into the pan (heat on medium)
Once the egg isn't liquidity (on top) add the turkey bacon and cheese.
Fold over and there's your omlette.

It was sooo good!

And it was a total of 4 points!!!

:hangloose:

Congratulations!!! Keep up the good work!

[QUOTE=Scorp;542880]Howdy Folks,

Was looking forward to breakfast for din din tonight and came up with my own omlette concoction I suck at making breakfast so my hot stuff wifey cooked it for me:

- 1/2 cup egg beaters
- 3 slices of turkey bacon (diced up)
- 1 wedge laughing cow french onion cheese
- Cooking Spray (butter flavored)

Pour the egg into the pan (heat on medium)
Once the egg isn't liquidity (on top) add the turkey bacon and cheese.
Fold over and there's your omlette.

It was sooo good!

And it was a total of 4 points!!!

This reminded me how truly versatile eggs can be. I'm not fond of the yolks so I "share" those with my dog. I just recently took 1/2 doz and boiled them all about medium, then kept them in the fridge as quick pure protein snacks and/or additives to salads, veggie spreads, or other veggie dishes.

IHOP Bound!!!
 

Good Morning Folks...

I weighed-in this morning and....

LOST 5 lbs!!!!! :cheer: :clap:

Let the journey continue on!!

Woo hoo! You go Jo!!!

Congratulations!!!!!!

Zimmeh

I give up!
 

I spent 20 minutes trying to find my first post which stated why I wanted to join this thread. I wanted to have a place to confess whether or not I was following through with exercise per doctor's orders due to a past health condition where it is especially important that I exercise daily. Even though weight loss was not my goal you all said it was cool for me to join this thread, so I did!

Anyway, I actually ended up gaining 10 lbs since that time ('cause I didn't follow through on exercising and chemo seemed to have changed my metabolism which was higher before treatment), which moved me outside my healthy weight zone. So now I am on the weight loss journey!

I am happy to say that I did decrease my portions that I mentioned was my plan a week or so ago and dropped 4lbs this week. Yippee! So, I would like to lose about another 9lbs to hit my goal weight.

Congrats to everyone who has dropped some weight recently through HEALTHY living!

Great Thread
 

First of all, this is a great thread! I commend each and every one of you on your efforts and support of each other. I'm very impressed.

I am fortunate to be a little taller than average. And broad shouldered. So when I've had extra weight, most folks didn't notice it. I'm just a big person that has been involved in some sort of athletics all my life. However, when I was laid up after a wreck and gained weight - I felt like crap. Also, high cholesterol runs in my family regardless of what weight you're carrying. I am unable to take statins - they make me really, really sick...frankly i believe that's a good thing because they are really toxic even for those that tolerate them well. Just to share a few things that have worked for me...

Eat fresh foods - veggies, fruits, etc. The less packaging / processing the better. There's a lot of chemicals added to processed foods that make it addictive, can cause cancer or other maladies, etc. i sometimes buy frozen not only for the convenience but it is picked at the height of ripeness. you also don't have to worry about it going bad.

Protein - that's important. you may be vegan / vegetarian. whatever you are you need to make sure you eat plenty of protein animal, plant-based...you need it for lean muscle mass and lean muscle mass keeps your body's metabolism running on a more consistent basis throughout the day. i shoot for a gram per target body weight. i have two brother's that have done some serious body building off and on thru the years. i got that tip from them and some of these others.

Exercise - ease into it or you'll burn out quick. mix it up. your body will acclimate to an exercise you do every day and the return on investment will diminish. i like the gym and things i can do outdoors. spinning / cycling is a great way to burn calories fast and can be done indoors or out. don't forget that the rest of your body needs to be strong. and you always want to make sure you work opposing muscle groups equally to avoid injury. your core is just that - the core of what everything else plays off of. whatever exercise you do, make sure you are keeping your core engaged. suck in that tummy, tighten those glutes, etc.

Body Type / Ethnicity - we're all different. accept who you are and go for the best you! not everyone is meant to be a supermodel or a big muscle beast. be realistic. talk to your doctor about it. there's total hotness in all body types - at least i think so!

that's my start. gotta get ready for the day. feel free to shoot me off any questions or comments.

Later Champs!!!

My clothes have gotten a bit frumpy but I am not ready to go out and buy anything yet. I figured I would wait until summer.

I found a couple of boxes in storage this week that were filled with "the clothes that i can't bear to give away cuz I might just fit into them someday" clothes. Guess what??? I FIT.

All size 20's. Started at 28. Haven't been here for close to 10 years.

(The clothes are 10 years old thank goodness. Just bought most of them "wishful thinking" lol)

Good evening to all!!! Had interveiw with a new trainer this afternoon. I think its gonna be good!!! He seemed very impressed with my journey so far. Not sure what he was expecting for a 55 yr old female, but im pretty sure it wasn't me!!! LoL Said I had very good skin tone, and posture for my age....ummm (whatever that means).
Gonna have some baked chicken breast , and spinach for dinner tonight.

Happy Monday Y'all!!!

Hello Healthy People!

Just a quick check in 'cause I'm so bloody proud of myself at the moment, I've finished the C25k program and today I ran my first 30-minute run post-program, I also upped my pace just a little bit so I feel like I'm finally making progress again! Hoorah!

Other than that I am still in plateau-land in terms of weight loss, it was driving me crazy so I've jammed my scale in the back my closet (with my iron) and I don't intend on looking at it for awhile (and if it suffers the same fate as my iron, a reallllllly looooooong while).

I've decided I'm just going to carry on running 3x a week, cycling a little here and there and trying to get to 2 pilates classes a week. Once I've mastered that I'll increase my running to 4x a week.

I think I may start doing WW again too since I saw good results with that and I am not been such a conscientious calorie counter (WW points are just a bit easier to deal with, I think). I will continue to take my nutritionists advice regarding several small meals and trying to have 1 high protein item per meal/snack.

And I am hoping, eventually, I'll start to see the pounds diminishing again.

Keep keeping on, everyone!

Gold sparkly stars all around!

Hi ya'll.It's been a while since I really went back to the weight loss program in ernest,the reason is my back has been a reall bad nasty jerk the last fue weeks to the point i've been useing pain meds a bit more than useual just to get through the day.The doc had given me a shot of antinflatory meds to help with the inflamation in my hip then gave me another shot of steriods to help as well,evreytime I get one of those in a couple of days the scale jumps up a fue pounds,if I had known he was going to give me a shot of steroids I wouldnt have taken it cause of the weight gain factor.Today I fely well enough to try working out for a bit and did a fairly good work out,even rode the bike for ten minits before my hip hollered to stop.Another thing that helped a lot was geting a couple of pair of spandex thights that suport my lower back and left thigh comfortably,I hadnt found any before that fit but I got some today ...worked really well.So im back to the grind stone takeing it one day at the time.