Probably when I was showing off for a femme split my pants and threw my back out too lol.

What age would you go back would you go back to knowing what you know now and why?

What age would you go back would you go back to knowing what you know now and why?
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I would go back to 30 years old and I would have never married who I married that New Years Eve. Why? My decision had long term life changing effects to my life even to this day.

In the spirit of Halloween...What is the most fearful you have ever been and Why?

the most fearful? well, life right now is figuring pretty high on the list to be honest. been that way since the beginning of 2010 for various reasons that seem to just piggyback on one another. it's like it wont let up and it's kind of gathering speed too. crazy stuff.

what person do you inpsire most and why?

I guess when I was by myself and started to choke on some meat . Wondering if I could save myself if I had too. God knows the cats wouldn't know what to do lol. In my younger days did alot of crazy things too.

What do you expect most from all your relationships friends etc.?

brutal honesty and personal accountability.

who do you inspire most and why?

nope

(and you're wrong about not being inspiring)


have you ever left an unsigned message for someone and why? what did the message say?

Yes, twice actually. One was to a guy that parked so close I couldn't open my door. I wrote thanks for squeezing me in & it would have been nice if he had at least left a can opener for me to get into my car.
The second was after I hit a parked car. YEARS ago. In my 20's. I wrote I was sorry for hitting your car. People think I'm leaving my name & phone number. I'm not. (I know, NOT cool, but it was my younger rowdier days.

Keeping the theme, have you ever left a note and signed it? What was the message?

yes. i left a message in a lover's childhood bedroom for the to find next time they went to visit the family. it said something appropriate to the situation.

have you ever kept your feelings for someone (good or bad) a secret from them? explain why.

yes I have kept my feelings silent about someone, because they were involved with someone else. I do not and will never interfere if there is a relationship already established.

If there was a holiday named for you, what would you like it to be for?

If there were a holiday named in my honor, I would want it to be National Start Your Life Over day.


If you could replace one object in your apartment, what would it be?

i want a big screen tv. i want to be able to see the stitches on the uniform.



i like IslandScout's question, so i will repeat it. ...

if you could replace one object in your apartment/house/tiny house/ect., what would it be?

The bed. I want a big, soft, squishy one.

If you had a house built, where would you live and what would the house be like?

Ooooo, good question! I *think* I would like to live in close proximity to an ocean. So, perhaps California or New England. My house would be fairly contemporary, so, modern with a vintage flare, but not so modern that it feels untouchable. It would have high ceilings, no carpet ANYWHERE, preferably poured concrete floors throughout, as many floor to ceiling windows as possible for maximum sunlight, a large master suite with an adjacent balcony, en-suite, and beehive fireplace. It doesn't need to be a huge home and honestly, I want each room to be a frequently used space - no rooms that just sit there waiting for company. So, maybe 3 bedrooms at the most. I'd also love a library and perhaps a dedicated exercise room. I have a thing for hallways, too, so lots of long hallways with wall space for my amateur art collection. I also love window-seats, so a couple of those as well.

This could go on and on, so I better stop there. :)

If you could have a torrid love affair with one celebrity, who would he/she be?

It would be built somewhere in the PNW, two story house with a finished basement, a few fire places, built in hot tub jacuzzi, modern kitchen, a room that has ceiling to floor book shelves, perfect lighting, sound proofed, computer, TV, sound system, furnished in a rustic woodsy decor with fireplace, and the house would have an outside porch that surrounds it on all sides.

My home would be surrounded by trees, fresh air, a dog of course and a stream, lake of some sort. The seasons of the year would be apparent. No sameness year round.

If you could make one lasting decision for eternity, what would it be?

Rachel Maddow

To live life with gratitude, to be grateful for everything.

What do think you cannot live without and what can you truly not live without.

Just one, really? Meryl Streep, Alfre Woodard, Diane Lane

1) I tell myself I cannot live without chocolate, electronics, a car. 2) I know I cannot live without music or love.

Have you ever had someone confess unrequieted love for you? How did you handle it?

Yes I was totally honest as soon as I realized the situation and my feelings. I never want to use anyone or lead anyone on even for one day. I was as gentle and honest as one could be in those cases. Luckily for me the few times it has happened the women where very sweet very mature and handled the whole uncomfortable situation wonderfully.
What is your best character trait and how has it been a benefit to you.

my best character trait is my ability to listen

what old messages play in your head?