i went to a gathering of family to have lunch in remembrance of my aunt that passed away. the lunch was at the fellowship hall at a methodist church. so we are all in the fellowship hall and i remembered lines from a movie. so i say, "this woman slams the door in a mans face, and right before she slammed the door ... he said "you murderist!" she reopened the door and said, "what did you say!" he said, "i called you a murderist!" she said, "oh. i thought you said methodist." and closed the door again.

most didn't laugh. o well.

Cuddling, good movies, a special project, behavioral psychology and trying to make a decision on pizza toppings.

The visit with the gyno on Monday morning. I've been told it can take up to 3 hours to hash out the logistics. :wtf:
:yesno:

Good thing the extra 8 hours I put in today goes on my next time period which will cover next week :writer:

Now I'll have enough hours to cover my medical appointment... :breakdance:

I'm a bad bad girl.. I'm having pumpkin roll with cream cheese filling for dinner. after getting loopy on benedryl and spending the evening filling out job apps.

tomorrow is payday thank god

I haven't done my dishes yet, because after today's stressful workday, I just don't care.

gotta love friends that always go out of their way and convenience to help you

this storm blowing thru is AWFUL and I'm praying for a safe night for all.

LOVE THIS- AND IN FULL AGREEMENT

A client is on my mind- He was severely neglected and bullied all through school but kept it to himself. He struggles I can see it. After group- I went and sat with him after the other clients left and he broke down and cried with me,

It is so hard to have professional boundaries when you just want to hold someone.
So I touched his back and rubbed in for a moment and told him he was safe and it will get better it just takes time, I asked him to promise me he would go to the local alano club after that and sit so he was somewhere safe and surrounding my community. He cried some more, I told him "crying is the best things you could do, let yourself cry, I cry often" and that I could see he was hurt and afraid but that he had numbers to call and places to be ok in where they'd understand. Withdrawal is difficult and I would make sure that his doctor would be made of the anxiety he was experiencing first thing in the morning and I am really glad he told me how he really felt, so I could help him get his needs met.
He'll be in my prayers tonight. :praying:

I call that surrender-to the unknown. I can only do the footwork and stay awake to the process- the rest I trust to the infinite source knowing there is no lack or limitations to the universes intentions for me
How that will look is none of my business. Mine is only to BE the BEST me I can BE.
I relate my friend and thank you so much for sharing it- I appreciate your truth
Namaste'

Food soon that will hopefully warm me up
Then back to the dogs
And try to do homework
I may end up curling up on the couch with lots of blankets instead


Outside of that, I think I've not much else on my mind.

I am keeping a coulpe of friends very close in thought tonight. It's times like this that I wish I could just cuddle up with them to know I am there, to say things will be okay and maybe for a couple of moments acheive an inner calm through the storm.

A bottle of wine, netflix and homemade treats.

I agree- I guess part of me could tell he wasn't ready for more, I am just grateful I could be there, it was a hectic day and he just got out of detox last night and went to to sleep and came directly to group this morning and we had a lot of intakes so it was very important to me to give him some time one on one, he was long forgotten in his life I don't want his healing process to be the same. I know that hurt so well- it makes my heart bleed for him. :)

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a kiss goodnight...