My poems
 

it's a good place to have my poems in case where i forgot them in my copy book

Maybe...
 

doubts like to stay present
the sun always shines
that mirror keeps showing your reflect
that melody does haunt you
the changements help you
the memories are missing some important parts
the tree will give gorgeous fruits
the road to hell is paved of good intentions
the cold doesn't suit you so well
maybe...
a new start calls for you

mon coeur my heart
 

cher coeur,de quoi es-tu fait?
dear heart what are you made of?
tu ne cesses de battre
you don't stop beating
le chemin qui me conduit à toi
the road who takes me to you
n'est pas une ballade de santé
isn't a walk in the park
je peux crier ou pleurer
i may scream or cry
c'est comme si je suis en prison
it's as if i am in jail
qui a les cles?
who have the keys?
toi?
you?
moi?
me?
ou un inconnu?
or an unknow?
donne-moi un indice
give me a clue
ma sanité est en jeu
my sanity is at risk
tu le sais
you know it
ne ris pas
don't laught
je ne parle pas
i don't talk
ressens-le
feel it
battre
beating
mon coeur
my heart

Attendre
 

Attendre que ma main
se decide à former
des mots coherents
Attendre qu'elle arrête
d'hesiter sur les mots
avant qu'ils ne
s'enfuient
du moins pas avant que
je ne les ai attrapés
Attendre que la surprise
ne laisse place à
un autre sentiment
auquel le deni a de grandes chances
de noyer sous ses flots
Attendre que je ne flanche pas et
ne laisse la fatigue
me terrasser
Attendre que mes demons
me laissent un peu
de repit
il semble que
je ne fasse que ça
ces temps-ci
Attendre

Cold
 

Freezing like a flower in winter
my heart is cold
blood is pumped to him throught
the veins
he's cold like ice
don't feel the soft warm
who was here before
feeling empty
the mask on my face is
crackeled at some parts but
he's working his magic on others
a little presomptuous?
think what you want
it doesn't matter
just like somethings
cold isn't eternal
he's gonna melt
under the sun
and show his true worth
appreciated or not
he'll be seen
soft? no
Cold

Red
 

Circulating just like a river
empty eyes watching that
liquid tempting them
precious liquid
are you precious to me?
feelings are dry like a desert
the weather isn't helping me
they're stagnant
you'll tell me i don't have to do that
but you're not hearing her
in my head like i do
somedays it's your voice
and for others her's is louder and stronger
currently that color shows me
contentement
a smile of my face
i won't have that need
for today
i'm satisfied
maybe it'll change tomorrow
i hope no
no tears of sadness are cried
they are tears of relief
for that my
red lips are spelling
thank you

days
watch them go
one after the other
what are you doing?
observing everything and
nothing
the birds singing
for the world
feeling the wind
going on and on
people talking
the sens is unknow to me
counting the seconds
until i forget where i am
the sun is so far gone that
he's remplaced
the silence is
a luxury
a rarity just like
a blue moon
it's different
always
hope
go with it
grab her and
ask her
have you forgot now?
do you want to?
it's out
of my control

what is the point?
when you're always
conflicted with yourself?
hot and cold
happy and sad
love and hate
interest and indifference
present and absent
here and somewhere else
forgetful and fighting
what is the point?
feeling things
or trying to
asking to be sure
got the pleasure
to holdin on
turning
walking
smiling
hesitating
talking
what is the point?
let's say
hope
yeah hope
what is the point?
a little flower
called
hope

cela a tellement bien commencé un ciel bleu clair remplacé par un ciel gris et menaçant le calme laisse place à la tempête personne d'autre que toi ne le ressens tout autour le même scenario pour toi ce n'est que le debut du cycle pour un peu tu l'aurais oublié n'est-ce pas? reviens sur terre n'as-tu donc pas vu les signes? ne mens pas tu les as juste ignorés c'est plus facile ainsi pour combien de temps encore? oublie tu sais quoi faire? bien sur que si tu sais bats-toi jusqu'au retour du beau temps

wake up little bird
time to rise
and shine
no more like
time to dry
your tears
the night is gone
short but gone
close your eyes
put back that
wall in place
fragile but
strong
independent
from you
finaly don't do
that
he's already here
you know it
little bird
close your eyes
dry these tears
let them place
themselves
like usual
you can poke them
if you want
at your risks
little bird
let the smile in
the closet
for today
but not the snake
pet him
but beware the
bite little bird
let's start the
day
little bird

des yeux grand ouverts
mais ne voyant rien
she's breathing
with too much
or not enough
emotions as
company
le froid a beaucoup plus
d'emprise sur elle
qu'elle ne veut
l'accepter
hiding
hiding
hiding behind them to breathe,
wake up or walk
o¨´ est la difference?
le rythme est si lent
les heures ne font qu'attendre
que les minutes
prennent fin
where is it?
that color who
makes you breathe
wake up or walk
where are you
hiding now?
montres-toi
j'ai besoin de toi
no
she needs you
more
show yourself

it wasn't the first time
that your hope has been broken
again,
again and
again
stop doing that!
hurting yourself like that
stop it!
even if you hide it
he's bleeding
you are too
how long will it continue?
learning to ignore it
that pain
won't last for long
you'll bleed too much
that death will come
and nothing will be left of you
nothing
heal him
he'll be grateful
for you heart of gold
navigating between darkness and light
start your processus and
heal him

that one is on my fb account like many others too
 

dreams are limitless
got them in different shades of colors
you don't have to like them
they do
it's the most important here
you got the light
to wake up when it's too much
dreams
dreams
when you can't take no more
they become your oasis
meeting the good one is like
touching the sky
with your bare hands
dreams are dreams
not so comforting when
you're in cage
dreams are an escape's place
carry on your day
and after that
dream

where do you find the strenght?
to wake up every day
to put yourself out of
your cocoon to hide
your worst fears
under a bag of confidence
where do you find the strenght?
to not burry your nightmares
behind a blackboard
to be silent when
you only want to
scream or cry all
the tears of your body
where do you find the strenght?
to not tear appart your being
when getting too much
flash-backs to walk
when you're between two
extremes
to live in the present when
reality refuse you
how to nurture these bounds?

Slipping from the borders
Falling back in again
Pushing me away from the coast
Straight into the storm's eye
Eithout hearing the calls of sailors
Fighting to keep my head above the salty water
Swimming against that thundeeing
And hellish sea to reach a safer place
Who seems to be at the end of the world
Still far away
Too much far away
Dry wind slapping my face
Pulling me deeper in that tortuous scene
Waiting for a sign from a star
Messenger of promises

Through my window, the world is mine
To take and explorate
Like a painting coming to live
After hours of work
Throwing to your face each all
Of his many faces
Each ones as much unique
As a fingerprint
A full russian mountain only to get
To the other side of the town
It doesn't make even half of a life
Sending you overboard just to sense
A spark of feelings
Cold and mean
Cold and pure
Cold and alive
Silent and deadly for some
Falling down,
Let the day goes
And the night swallows all the players

Why don't you tear me appart now?
Are you waiting for waterfalls to show themselves?
Please, please
You've taken everything from me
Heart, feelings
and what of my caged
Since you're at that?
Tore me in shreeds
And watch me scream as never
I've done
Broke my bones in hundreds of pieces
Throw them somewhere
a soul can't find
Burry me under these bones
Watch me choke and let myself go
From that pained love
Follow me
if your heart desire it

Kill me softly with that look of yours
Make me crave your presence
Bring me to the edge of sanity
With a touch of your hand
I'm not a perfect person
You're not
It's perfect that way
Be the reason of an healthy
In my life
Be the amortencia who once dank
Get me obssessed of you
Let's dance on that unheard song
Only known by us
Keep me on my toes
Surprise me
Drop that poker face
And let me in

Maybe you shouldn't come back
Give me a break of everything
You let me down
Take that as it is
Tired of all these bittersweet memories
Not easy as I thought to pick
What ones to keep or throw in the bin
Don't come back
Not to me
I'm tired to be so sad for your mistake
You didn't fit the requirement
Let's go back at the unknown part of our lives
Unconditionally a lost stone
In the immensity and chaotic forest of my mind
Echo of a hopefully
If not sure forgotten lover

Feelings tend to hold you
At once as captive then guardian of that jail
Passing long period of time
Drawing on a wall made of black stones
Jot having enough guests to feel visible
So fading away
Outside with the corpses once gone
These writtings as witnesses of
A programmed long agony
That dear guard tall and silent
Representating who's sweared vows of
Silence on front of this condamned
Indifferent to any whines or manifestation of feelings
Only welcomed distraction
The wind passing through the window
Of his little office away from
A vortex of caged demons
Still refusing to know the extent of his crimes
The files never lie after all

Where are you going now?
Driving me mad with all that walk
Robbing my light and leaving me behind
In a cold and empty dark piece
Trying to identify objects only with my ears
And with luck, that fairy who is flirting
And tempting me like a brand
New pearl under the ocean
Like an insect hypnotized by a perfume
Waiting for your strong steps to crush me
Following these clues to get out
Taking me near the sea
Under your watch for a last date
You, the sea, the moon and I

Staying here
waiting for the fall of leaves
Telling me yes for a new start
All night sleeping under the stars
Imagining myself as one of them
Away from earth
Worrying only about shining freely
Building a bridge getting me further
From things asking me to stay
Stay longer and see what breaks out of that
Lost somewhere between the underworld
Skin pelling of the meat from one side
And glowing like wings of a lady bug
Under the sun on the other
Looking through the crack
For some equilibrium

Beggar since birth
Attentive for any sign first from family
Then friends
Beggar for one praise over daily tasks
Begging you on my knees deep inside
Of my maze of mind
Should i use one more catalyser
To vote for my case?
Beggar's not a chooser some said
Over that road made of stones and flames
Begging has transformed my essence
Into one plain deserted island
Where chains felt strong enough
To sustain another heartbreak
Begging mine of fooled heart to let go
Of all that pain

There was a time where i thought
you were my terminus
even when signals were telling me
how wrong i was
Naturally stubborn mind refused
to belive that
At your side fear was forgotten
Hate was muted and locked
In that dark room hich key
always played tricks on me
Screams had gone silent
There was a time where a lost and scared
little girl would have ran to you
It has changed now
Little girl has found another place
To use as cover
She has set you free
From your invisible chains
Calmly removed herself
Ran away
Battered heart pumping
On a dying heart
Your eyes keep falling back
Remembering a ghost of a relationship
That burned followed by that bridge

You
I've met you when the sand was making
Another prisoner of me in his land
I've been asking myself
why do you love me so much?
A nobody owning nothing?
A nobody praying to disappear in the veil of death?
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
You've told me of being the star of your nights
Keeping you wanting another day of life
The best event to ever happen to you
And you?
Do you know how much of reminders notes each days
I needed to burn in the restroom?
Saying "it's another day and they still are here loving you,lucky bitch! Amen!"
Bittersweet words ringing so much
truthfully in my ears
You, you, owner of my heart and soul
Yes you do have them too

Dear little one
You don't know how many papers have found themselves in the bin
I wanted to tell you so many things
but i guess it wasn't satisfying enough
So i let you be the judge

I wasn't here when taking your first breath in this world,
I missed your firsts steps, words, so many instants of yohr childhood
I'm sure you're tempted to burn this letter
but i hope that you'll keep on reading
Many reasons came to mind but i know
they're just excuses at your eyes
You are the apple of my eyes, my dream came true, my best accomplishment
You're the proof that that something good can come out of me
I wasn't here for years
That hurts me so much, my heart is broken
I can't imagine what you've and still felt today
I plaid guilty
If i could turn back the time
so many things would be different
It's sadly impossible
Maybe if there's still some light left
In your heart to give us an opportunity
To rekindle some kind of bond
It'll be the best gift i'll ever have
If not i'll understand and respect gour choice
Remember daddy loves you now, tomorrow until the world falls apart

That's what i'ld have written to you if i was courageous enough to get it down, all these words are stuck in my head, I have no strenght to face you
So i let things as they are, it's the only way to go.

Strength
 

Strength
Picked out of a range of emotions
Chosing to strive even when your body and beg to abandon
Strenght to belive in a future
seen by a glimpse accorded to you by destiny
Strength to fight for a place under the sun
Not someone else chair
but yours
Taken through sweating
and stressing daily
with all the casualties caused on the way to that destiny
Strenght to dare playing the game
but still staying true to your valors
Strength to go for what is righfully
Yours.
©

In a perfect world,
I would have you for myself
Without all these barriers each of us put in place
A part of me flowered under your eyes
Like maybe yours did too
In a perfect world,
My dreams would come true
We'll replay all theses scenes so kitch
But romantic at once
I will love to laught with you
To fall asleep in your arms
To stop myself from holding back
In a perfect world,
I won't be afraid of feelings
Good or not
But it's not a perfect world si ?

Maybe
 

Maybe
Were you right?
Can't tell you what you need to hear
I ain't an angel
My wings have been broken for a while now
These scars can't heal just to make place for a blank page
All the others already paid the price
All of them rotting seven feet under earth
My naivety slipping on the road of life
Now the only side of me you'll have is this persona
With an empty Hold at the place of my hear
Swallowing everything around until you too become an empty shell ready for slaughtering
Maybe will i let you breathe
Smiling at the poison going through your throat?
Maybe will you fall under a well masterpiece?
But you surely will call it butchering?
I'm an artist love your pain call for my creativity to explose!
They will appreciate my originality
Of not i'll find another way to subjugate them
The world is my plaything to used as i want
Maybe
Are you my next prey?
©

Someone told me
 

Someone told me
I don't know how to love
What does it mean?
Do i need a learning to love book for dummies ?
There's so different ways of loving out there
Mine comes from my environment
I'm afraid that tought love is the only one known to me
Once the door opens forget the sweetening seen outside
Surviving pushes us to sharpening our tools
A smile can't always keep you safe
Often the cover hides an uglier side of the book
Sorry for using what i was teached to hopefully see another sun rises
Mean i may be but i was at the best school with you as professor
Toxicity may run in my orchad but it grows with careful pick
Vampire sucking you dry but you're blind until the end
Filling up the knife called heart for the following season
Someone told me
I don't know how to love right
This concept is still an unknown data
Until found a resolution to that problem
That love is the only calice proudly shown to the world

Thanks for reading them ^_^ stay safe and take care

My battle symphony
 

My battle symphony
A song full of so much meanings
It's calling my soul to fight
Fight to see another day rises
Understanding how much the path which is seeing my uncoordinated steps walk the wanna
My battle symphony doesn't pay attention to the bigger picture for long
Because it gets the importance of little things taken for granted
In a world singing the praises of success without giving the respect deserved to every mistakes written on the curriculum vitae known as life
My battle symphony celebrates you
You and every pearks of humanity
One trying to be chocked and burned to the ground by one society stuck in its ways
My battle symphony can be heard through that stubborn and yearning heartbeat of yours
Poking at their unseeing minds
Radiating with the lyrics
Sang with yours and mine
Combinated souls delivering messages
Heard it or not
All the detractors don't have voice to this part of the script same for that chapter
My battle symphony tells the hardships visible or not
daily struggles voiced or not
Maybe will you hear the anger?
Shame?
Despair?
Fear?
Incessant calls of death made by my demons?
Truth is
My battle symphony calls upon the worst and troubled side of both of us
Stop fooling yourself
I see you
Doodling with concerned eyes
To the rythm of
My battle symphony