[VintageFemme]

Not so much all over the map this evening, but still a little frazzled.

I like having this thread to come and whine to. I'm not one to complain or 'air my dirty laundry' for everyone to see but it's kinda nice having a 'thread' ask me how I'm feeling. In the real world despite how I am doing and even if there are tears rolling down my face or I'm doubled over in pain or limping along or... when asked how I am feeling or how am I doing, my answer is always, "fabulous" "wonderful" "if I were any better, I would have to be twins" blahblahblah. It's the polite thing to do. So having here to say what I really want to say, and not because I'm not polite here rather because no one is most likely reading my whining and so in that there is the freedom to um, whine on ... and so I can.

I'm a little exhausted from crazy busyness at work.
My leg is still giving me grief.
I've had about all the Texas Summer I can have. Not only for this year but forever I do believe. It drives me cranky.
I am still feeling the surreal emotional roller coaster that is love at first sight with my precious two week old grandson who I just can't get enough of. He is the absolute light in my soul now.
But I'm still feeling quite sad and disappointed in that which could have been, might have been, would have been. And not sure I understand why this is lasting so long. It shouldn't be. It's quite a strange situation to find myself in. What's lovely too about this 'space' to speak to about how I'm feeling, is that I know she's not on BFP nor would she find me here and so there is freedom in that to be able to freely ...again, whine. Pitiful. Pathetic. Shameful. Blahblahblah

Thank you for asking though.