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Originally Posted by Bad_boi
I think she was kidding.
I have jokingly referred to myself as a guy with boobs. Lets face it, butches are just like men in many ways. Its kind of like saying she is a guy and a girl rolled into one.
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This is why this conversation deserves attention, why it's about concepts beyond what a celeb spews out a 1000 miles away from us. Why it was brought up and matters here.
It's not just a prob of some un-PC celeb, because I come to my community and hear it too, regularly. (don't mean to single you out Bad-boi it's just a good example in the moment)
Why it's all such a big deal? Well it's not because I think men are gross or hate them. It's because it's part of a vicious cycle that keeps the ball of sexism and misogyny rolling. NOT that every person who does it's motive is to implement those things. But it creates a system that says the masculinity, butch-ness that we value is not the product of female beings, and the credit literally in written record goes to man. "She" by default has thus become devalued... and set to a lower rung in that arena.
Female is not a "part" of me, I'm not a "guy and girl rolled into one", I'm not a freakin' candy bar. Female is not just my body, it's my mind and with that my butch-ness/masculinity as well. I don't "aspire" to be seen as a man. I wear all "male" clothing, etc but that's about who I am as a butch, my likes... my dislikes... it's one small piece of me.
These days, in MY life... I don't have time nor desire to spend my days worrying how anybody measures me as a butch, the true measure of me is my strengths, integrity, honesty, capacity for kindness and compassion. I don't worry about passing... I used to, but
to me the more "male" you look has no bearing on anything. Truth, as of late I try not to pass, purposely, the core of butch-ness resides inside. Whether I'm wearing my tux, wrenching on my bikes engine or exercising the carpentry skills my Dad handed down to me that's all female 24/7... and if I decide to watch the Golden Girls while wearing eyeliner and drinking Mimosas... I'm still all butch 24/7.
If somebody wants to devalue my butch-ness because I look less like a man than Joe Blow Hard, they can eat me, and yes I said that.
And it's even more personal to me. This butch femme community is very very near and dear to my heart, I have beautiful friends here, and it really is a home away from home and always a port in the storm... something I truly cherish. If I didn't feel this way there'd be plenty of days I'd just walk away from the bullshit. But I believe we have the capacity to, and for the most part do pull together when it counts and lift each other and brush each other off.
And I don't just blow off the here and there bullshit because if we don't care enough to respect the validity and value of all our identities, who the hell will?
And actually... and lastly... about this female ID v.s. male ID butch war that's supposedly happening. I'll be perfectly frank, I've experienced more indifference, heard more side-swipes as to identity... more direct swipes, saw more "who the hell cares" attitudes and more pronoun defaulting from
femmes... by far, then I've ever heard from other butches. I suspect this is because butches know well the sting of being on the other side of that stick. And my apologies to the vast majority of femmes, whom I've found very supportive and very respectful... you have my greatest respect in return as well. I truly treasure you.
Ok apparently I had some things to get off my chest... but still the gist to me is that sometimes it's bigger than just a celeb spewing shit and our own opinions of one poster or laziness on pronouns, and we look beyond our own noses and defer to our ears when many community members says, here's a prob, can we discuss it.
Whew, I may not speak again for a week.
Peace,
Metropolis
ETA: Truth if I ever thought this community, even a majority... didn't value and respect female and woman as a strong identity and presence, again I wouldn't be here... my bitch is about lets work on some of the stuff that slides and I think that goes for all identities, not just my own.