I am still struggling with getting over my ex. We were happy together, understood one another, and shared amazing intimacy. I relapsed after being clean for 6 months...and she left me. Sometimes when she and her new girlfriend are fighting she calls me. Saying how she missed our relationship because we didn't fight. If she has been drinking...I get the I love you and you are the best sex I have ever had. She feels safe in her new relationship, and that is what she wants. Life with me wouldn't be easy...i am a recovering addict with schizophrenia. She doesn't have the capacity for who I am. I just still love her so much...and it is keeping me from persuing new relationships. I am just not ready to love again right now...but I am working on it.
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