[Gayandgray]

I'm so heartbroken and devastated that I'm shaking. Brandy had another stroke. My spouse and I have decided it's time to end her suffering. We made an agreement that we would not let her suffer, and now she is and that breaks my heart. I made the mistake with our first Boston, Billy. He had cancer and I just couldn't put him to sleep. I couldn't do it. And despite his pain meds, I know he suffered those last two days before he died in my arms. I realize my mistake and I won't do that to Brandy Rebecca. Spouse and I are in agreement that she has a poor quality of life now and she is tired. The vet says her heart is so bad that she might have a massive stroke and be paralyzed. So I set it up for Thursday, my day off. My step son is going to drive us to the vet because I don't think I will be able to drive and handle my spouse in her wheelchair. Afterward we are bringing Brandy back home and our handy man is going to bury her out in the back yard under the big tree. My step son just had back surgery so he can't dig her grave, and my arthritis is too bad to do it myself. I'm taking off work tomorrow so I can have the whole day with my dog one last time. The only thing that helps is knowing that when Brandy crosses the rainbow bridge, Billy and our cat Ink, will be there to welcome her. Please pray for her and my spouse, who is really falling apart. I'm dying inside but I have to keep it together for her and our other 3 dogs. Goddess give me strength. Sorry this is such a long post.