I have the first (the first of several to come) meeting with my manager today. I look forward to it being over. It will take time. All this makes me feel so icky on the inside. Meetings are necessary in order to take care of me. I do not mind confrontation. I have no fear. All I have to do is present facts and the documentation to back it up ... and I have it.
I must remain calm and professional even if the lies of the one I am exposing are voiced again. It will be difficult to remain calm under those circumstances. That is where I would normally explode. Not happening!! Nope! I will not give in to the urge. I am doing it differently from now on. There will come a feeling of freedom when all this is said and done ... eventually. I won't turn my head and look the other way again. I abandoned me in the past when I did this. Truth ... that is the only thing I am pursuing and exposing.
Today is a new year. The beginning. I see I still trust too much. That is what has placed me in this position to have to ask for these meetings and be heard. I feel like I have "messy" all over me.
The good news is that it is Friday.
Happy Friday to all of you here at BFP!!
