[NavyButch]

As of today on My return home from work- still no sign of him. I have a feeling he truly is an outdoor cat. I found the last bowl of food I left out there empty this morning- but the water dish was still full. Given this is happening after I fall asleep I have no clue if it is him or a possum or other critter. I think I need to prepare Myself that he may not return and if he does- he will always want to be an outside cat. While I adore him- I truly do want an indoor cat.

After speaking to one of My colleagues at work today- she suggested I go to the SPCA and mingle with the cats they have there- and see if I have a connection to any. I was hesitant at first- given all of this is fresh- but I also know I can not stay stuck in sadness mode- and My heart is still open should he return- and if he wanted to be an outdoor cat- I would feed him still, etc.

Well, long story short- and after visiting with about 12 cats total- I found Lily!! She has been at the shelter for quite some time as no one wants to adopt her as she is an older cat- 4 yrs 8 mo. to be exact. She is just lovely- very social- and inquisitive- I decided to do the application- and I will be bringing her home with Me this Thursday after work. They said if I had a change of heart between now and then I can just call and cancel.

They printed off her health history for Me to look at before then- and when I got home this evening I made a discovery- she has the same birthday as Myself- same month and day!! Crazy, right? But, that tells Me it is meant to be.

I am doing this with a heavy heart- but I also know- it is the right thing to do- and should Sebastian return- My heart and door is open to him- and I would care for him however he wanted, even if it is an outdoor situation.

Thank you to everyone who sent Me caring messages and showed concern for him and for Me. That is what community is all about- and I appreciate it more than I can tell you all.