I am overly afraid of judgment.
So shy that just the thought of speaking to anyone because I want to makes me not only turning very beet red, and then turning tail, because no I can feel my heart jumping out of my chest.
I won’t talk about anything that actually has value to me. If it’s good it’s because it/you may leave and not come back, no matter how much I want you to know I won’t tell. Instead I will give you some other honest but much less personal complement. If it’s bad it is truly bad and I need to not be weak and deal, the worse it is the more I will regress from everything and everyone.
Someone told me quite a while back that I should speak less so people don’t know how stupid I am, I have yet to bounce back from that. I am afraid he was right.
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