[DapperButch]

Originally Posted by cathexis

Professional caregivers can also experience emotional trauma. I have been out on disability several years. It's been awhile since I have been at work, but was a RN at major trauma centers in their Surgical ICUs for 30 years. Thought that any nightmares or situational flashbacks would be long past, but not the case.

Over the past year, nightmares have resumed with a vengeance. Have been having what feels like half awake nightmares. I come out of the bed in a panic yelling being in some life death situation and needing to get there right away. Yell that I should be at the bedside doing some emergency procedure. My thought at the time is that I am being extremely guilty about not being with my patient. I will actually rise out of bed with a start rushing around the bedroom trying to take care of the situation. A few times, my Partner had to work at calming me down and trying to convince me that I am at home in my bedroom. That I am not at the hospital in this terrifying situation. Once it took Her about an hour to accomplish this.

These dreams have me afraid to fall asleep. I lay in bed with my muscles tense staring at the curtains fearing another nightmare. This is the worse stress related experience I have had, and could imagine having at this point in my nursing career. Traumatic nightmares occurring years after leaving patient care.

Have you sought out any therapy for this?