[Canela]

I am a total mess right now...the depression is at its peak, I don't want to talk to anyone, much less do any business or work...I want to sleep as much as possible and eating too much ice cream or whatever I can get ahold of...crying has started and I am trying so hard not to let myself be swept away into this but its so hard right now...all I want to do is hide in my bedroom and not see anyone, not my honey especially because I feel I am disappointing hym...my children don't understand they just say, "get over it mom"...and my pets, my babies they are confused...mama usually has it all under control...the trigger? So many things, one after the other after the other as if I had a ball machine just spitting balls at me with no bat to swing at 'em with...

I am praying that this will pass quickly...

Please God help.