[~ocean]

I had a Corona break down today ~ I hid in my room and cried my eyes out over a baby infant that had recently died ~ I had heard it on the news passing threw the kitchen ~ the feeling of helplessness and despair overwhelmed me. Normally I'm a pretty strong and hopefully logical person ~ but today logic turned into anger at the Lord ( that I am ashamed to admit ) what test of faith constitutes death ? this virus is ruining doctors forever ~ having to make a decision of someone else's time of demise ~ their soul is exposed ~ so vulnerable I just want to hold them. ((((((( the whole dam world )))))))