[easygoingfemme]

Yesterday high: My daughter graduated from college. Obviously no ceremony. We had a "drive by" party for friends and family to love on her from afar. My cousin's son drove almost three hours to get here. He is a nurse on a Covid ward. Just graduated last year from nursing school. It was so good to see him and we put together boxes of snacks and treats for him to help him through his overnight shifts. My sister in law and nephews came and parked out front for a while to talk through the window. I haven't seen them in person since March. We facetime but that's not nearly the same. It really hammered in how much things have changed. It was so good to see their sweet faces, even when it was sad to see them struggling with the masks. My older nephew has a new big tooth that I got to take pictures of from afar.

Low: Seeing my nephews. I was already really missing my brother who would have been so damn excited to be at my daughter's graduation. Even if it was a weird drive by event instead of what it should have been. He had been her educational cheerleader since birth. Not being able to hug my nephews. We are always hugs and snuggles and piggy back rides. My youngest nephew kept reaching for me through the window and just looking at me not understanding. They both called me Mama and asked for time together, asked me to take them to the playground we go to. After my brother died they of course continued calling their mom Mommy but I became Mama because I normally take care of them so much. It broke my heart to hear them calling for me like that and not be able to scoop them up and love on them.