[Gayandgray]

When one of my coworkers asked me how my spouse was doing? I just burst into tears because come January she will be 81 years old and she is in heart failure. They replaced the battery in her pacemaker last month. She knows she doesn’t have long. We have talked about her wishes. She wants to die at home. And my dear Mother has Alzheimer’s and doesn’t usually know my sister and I most days anymore. I’m heartbroken that I’m going to lose my spouse and my Mother and I’m not able to cope anymore. All I do is eat to kill the pain and I’m almost at 300lbs. I hate how my life is going right now but I know there are other people way worse off then me.