[Soft*Silver]

I am feeling all sorts of ways

I sprained my ankle yesterday. And it might be broken. I had gone to urgent care and they did an x-ray. They said that they couldn’t see a definite break. They wanted me to follow up with my orthopedic surgeon because it seems like more than a sprain. So… I’m in pain and I hurt. And I’m worried that I’ll get laid up again.

I feel relief, because finally after over three weeks and many attempts to correct an initial mistake, I made, while filing for unemployment, I got my first deposit.
But I’m feeling frustrated because I can’t access it. I had to close down my debit card because I lost it!

And I’m also feeling kind of lost. I’ve been laid off from the job that I felt was the best job I ever held, and I am kind of bored and feeling like I have no purpose. I don’t mean that in a low self-esteem kind of way. I mean that in a way that expresses that all my life I have served populations that were at risk and needy, empowering them to get strong and independent. I want to continue doing that, but I just don’t know in what direction or capacity or what population I will do it next.

I’ve had several interviews, all of them wonderful opportunities. But I am 66 years old and I don’t want to work full-time. I am retired. I am doing this to fill my need to serve. And I don’t want to be a Director or a supervisor or a manager… Which is where the interviews always go! I want to work in the trenches with the people.
I have a job interview on Monday. And another one on Wednesday of next week.