[GeorgiaMa'am]

Sad and tired and overwhelmed.

My mother passed away about 10 days ago. It was completely unexpected. I thought she was getting better, but she continued to deteriorate until she just didn't eat or drink for five days. My sister kept this information to herself, so I didn't get to go see my Mama before she died. By the time my sister came clean, Mama had only hours left. She passed away before I could jump in my car and make it all the way to her nursing home. I missed her by about an hour.

Then I somehow got a kidney infection within days and ended up hallucinating in the ER again. Actually, the doctors aren't sure it was an infection, that was just their best guess. I was in the hospital for a week, but now I'm home again.

I'm too tired to do anything but lie in bed.