[Soft*Silver]

So I had my follow up appointment regarding the macular hole in my left eye. They were giving it time to try to heal on its own, but unfortunately, it actually doubled In size. So I’m having macular surgery on November 25. The good news is that I’m able to return to work now until my surgery date and then I’ll be off for another two weeks while I recover.
It really sucks getting older. I am so young in my head, but my body says otherwise. Yesterday I spent all day washing and bleaching every pot and tray in my greenhouse. I planted fall bulbs. I dug up and moved some blueberry bushes. And I composted a bunch of stuff. And I thought I had taken it easy because in my younger years that would’ve been a couple hours worth of work and I would’ve probably done several more hours. But Instead, I ended up with very sore muscles and so exhausted that I couldn’t stand up in the shower! How the hell did I get here lol
But I still run circles around most people, my age. I’m really active for somebody who is 67. I’ve had some major health issues and gotten into some really bad accidents that laid me up for a while, but I still kick butt! In my head, I’m young.
Sometimes I sit and meditate and go back in time and remember when my skin was tight and my eyes were brown And my hair was curly and chocolate and auburn. I remember I never burned in the sun. I just grew darker. And I had the strongest thighs, from riding horses bareback sunup to sundown. I remember how rounded my breasts were and that without a bra, they stood up and smiled at everyone who passed them by. My lips were full, and my smile carried kisses for those I loved. My body never hurt. I could work on the farm and work full-time at a job! I would work up a good sweat, and today, I sweat whenever I work at all!!!
I love this body of mine even though it is aging. It holds so many memories. It has done so much in the world. Life was a good ride…