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Lady_Wu · 07-03-2010, 10:15 AM

That's a difficult disability with which to live. Both the the disability AND the meds used to control it can cause problems. If you don't mind me asking, what meds are you on? I suffer from major depression, PTSD, and GAD. I'm on Abilify, Cymbalta, and Klonopin to control those. Sometimes in the past the combination of all three, esp. the depression and the PTSD, have gotten so bad that I've had hallucinations. Not fun. The psychdocs tried me on a number of atypical antipsychotics. I hated them. The only one I stayed on for any length of time was Seroquel. I finally got them more or less under control through Taoism and Tibetan Buddhism. I still get "anguish attacks" every now and then. Those are like panic attacks but instead of anxiety, I get an acute attack of concentrated depression. It literally feels like someone's stabbing me in the heart. I can't predict them but when one hits, I just double over from the psychic pain. Now when one happens, I immediately do a sitting of meditation. I've only found one other person who experiences these. He was my paindoc for for several years! Basically, all I can do is wait them out, usually through meditation.
The GAD has gotten so bad that I could not handle a regular college atmosphere, even if I could do it physically (no chance). Too many people doing too much at the same time time. I tried going back to school one summer and could do that. The classes were small and not too many people were on campus at one time. Then the fall semester hit me. No way. If I could find a school with small classes and a laid back attitude, plus accomodations for physical disabilities, maybe I could go back. But I'm not looking to do so at the moment. I've got enough on my hands as it is!
Good luck, chef. I think you're doing an admirable job! Please return to this thread for support and general talk. I know Andrew's here for you. Count me as here for you,also. If you ever need to talk, feel free to PM me!
Lady_Wu

07-03-2010, 10:15 AM	#37
Lady_Wu Member How Do You Identify?: OFOS Queer Stone femme Preferred Pronoun?: M'Lady Relationship Status: given up looking sigh Join Date: Apr 2010 Location: somewhere buried under a pile of books Posts: 197 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 285 Thanked 300 Times in 105 Posts Rep Power: 155955	Re: mental health That's a difficult disability with which to live. Both the the disability AND the meds used to control it can cause problems. If you don't mind me asking, what meds are you on? I suffer from major depression, PTSD, and GAD. I'm on Abilify, Cymbalta, and Klonopin to control those. Sometimes in the past the combination of all three, esp. the depression and the PTSD, have gotten so bad that I've had hallucinations. Not fun. The psychdocs tried me on a number of atypical antipsychotics. I hated them. The only one I stayed on for any length of time was Seroquel. I finally got them more or less under control through Taoism and Tibetan Buddhism. I still get "anguish attacks" every now and then. Those are like panic attacks but instead of anxiety, I get an acute attack of concentrated depression. It literally feels like someone's stabbing me in the heart. I can't predict them but when one hits, I just double over from the psychic pain. Now when one happens, I immediately do a sitting of meditation. I've only found one other person who experiences these. He was my paindoc for for several years! Basically, all I can do is wait them out, usually through meditation. The GAD has gotten so bad that I could not handle a regular college atmosphere, even if I could do it physically (no chance). Too many people doing too much at the same time time. I tried going back to school one summer and could do that. The classes were small and not too many people were on campus at one time. Then the fall semester hit me. No way. If I could find a school with small classes and a laid back attitude, plus accomodations for physical disabilities, maybe I could go back. But I'm not looking to do so at the moment. I've got enough on my hands as it is! Good luck, chef. I think you're doing an admirable job! Please return to this thread for support and general talk. I know Andrew's here for you. Count me as here for you,also. If you ever need to talk, feel free to PM me! Lady_Wu __________________ I'm the Yin in the Yang and the Yang in the Yin.