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Originally Posted by Arwen

I will also return everyone's squares to them when I mail them mine. It's only fair.

I think that although you might be feeling badly right now, I would MUCH rather you stay in the project and keep my square. If you can find a way to mail me your raffleghan squares this week, I will add them to the raffleghan.

Yanno, sometimes in life we come up against something that is a "Do Not." It doesn't normally make sense, yanno? We start something with great enthusiasm and the best of intentions, but somewhere along the way we get a strong message that we need to stop... then every time we try to finish it, we find ourselves deflected away, either by other things immediately claiming our attention or by our own emotions suddenly making us too tired to cope.

When it's this consistent, I find it to be a big red flag that something is wrong which I haven't consciously acknowledged yet. In my own life, I have finally acknowledged that I have a huge "Do Not" about the psychic line; no matter how hard I tried, I could NOT make myself log in. I dunno why; it doesn't make any sense. I chose to be part of it, I wanted to do it, I said I would be available; this is, after all, what I do for my family and friends all the time..... yet after the first week, every time I logged in I had an anxiety attack or got completely exhausted; pretty soon there was every reason in the world to do other things and ignore the psychic line. (Quite often, the reason was, "but the dogs will bark." OY. Sooo irrational...)

Arwen, I'm wondering if you have a "Do Not" about going to the post office. You mentioned before that you're bad about it... is it more than that, honey? Is it impossible for you to go?

Can someone else mail them for you? Would someone be willing to go and spare you from the anxiety of a Do Not? If I lived near you, sweetheart, I would do it just to help you; maybe someone else will be willing to help you?

A Do Not might not be a full-blown phobia and it's certainly never rational, but there's always a reason for it somewhere... and hey, if we didn't each have our weird little quirks (like mine about the psychic line), we wouldn't be the interesting characters we are today.

Please don't give up on this, oh fellow Interesting Character. The raffleghan will be better for having your squares in it!