[lipstixgal]

Originally Posted by lilapache

well i did get an appointment with the counceling and med center around here... unfortunately it takes a month so the appointment isn't til July 23rd... but man oh man am i having some issues...

for one... why do so many people think the meds and therapy are the end all cure all.... sometimes you are who you are to the core... and don't they realize that some of us think..... well lets face it.. we sure as hell don't think like most people... and yes meds may help alter that some... and even therapy may have some options... but if its truly a part of who you are... and if you have accepted that... they can't deal with you... because hell... i know i struggle with in myself... i know i'm a bitch to deal with even ON meds.... but in my heart... to my core... i am a devoted.. caring... loving... and understanding woman... but there's alot of shit to go through to get to that point... and most can't deal with that.... because even medicated... you have your good days... and your bad... and sometimes those can turn into weeks....

*sighs*... i'm so frustrated and wondering.... why the hell am i doing this... why am i going through all this struggle muck and shit... to still be alone???? to still not have someone tolerate me... and help me through some of these... episodes... god i'm like so messed up... and i know i'm doin this for me also... because i know i needed some changes myself.... but when is enough enough...

thanks for letting me.... let go of some of this crap in my head... peace...

Lilapache I have bipolar disorder and have to function in everyday life and its hard. I get tired easily and frustrated too that the meds aren't doing their job but I know that I have to take em in order to survive. I haven't stepped out of my house all day today, just not a good day I suppose, very tired and trying to do an internship in medical assitant that I don't like. The office that is!! All they have me doing is paperwork which is stressful to say the least and getting my symptoms up. You have to do what is necessary for you and not worry about anybody else!! Go to the appointment and see what they have to say about your condition. best of luck to you.