Jenn, I think that its how our brains are wired that makes us hear the voices saying awful things to us inside our heads. I have the same problem.
I think it is awesome that you parents are cool enough to share expenses and help you give your children great opportunities. Good for you!
For me, I know that when things are good, I kind of have a sense of dread that something bad is going to happen...probably one of the therapists among us can explain why that is. I think our brains get used to being in crisis and automatically stay in fight/flight mode.
I try to not beat myself up for not doing everything over night. I am learning not to be so hard on myself as long as I am making some (any) progress.
As for progress, I met with a therapist for the first time in almost 20 years yesterday and I think I am really going to like her. I felt very comfortable right off and felt heard. This is the first time I have ever been to therapy when things in my life are good. I need to work on past trauma and anger.
Have a great weekend all and try to take it easy on yourselves, especially with all the holidays stress and mahem.
