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Old 08-07-2010, 01:42 AM   #565
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I'm having one of those moments tonight. My "safe place" seems to be broken at the present moment.

Therapy keeps getting better...Then worse...Then back to better again depending on the subject discussed.

I'm kind of struggling with my "safe place" as I can't seem to call upon it EVERY time *I* want it/need it, although it does help 3/4 of the time.

Since I'm about to get on a (gulps) plane, my therapist has decided to work exsorcises until I return so as not to open a before I go and am too far away.

I do have some great info (a bit expensive but worth the investment) though about a program sugested for me for the panic attacks. (Not trying to plug anything here it's just *my* opinion, because it soothes *me*.) www.stresscenter.com . The lady who started this Lucinda Bassett *sp (I believe her name is) started it and was once a sufferer of horrible panic attacks.
*shrugs* I like it anyways.

I keep going through moments of high and low. One moment REALLY good and up there and "OH BOY!" then dropping back down low. The lack of moral and emotional support is a big factor. I'm kind of cut off from my "support group" for a few days.

I don't know...I think my main problem right now is my ex is in town and stirring up messed up feelings that I don't want to go back to. She wants to get back together.
I'm obviously NOT interested. Doesn't mean it doesn't still hurt yanno?

Sorry to go on rambling. Thanks everyone. We all need to know that we're not the only ones here like this. And sorry about all the smilies...I needed a smile and theres that button over there.>>>
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