[Apocalipstic]

It freaks me out that because my outward appearance is feminine, I am assumed to be "the girl" in every single aspect of my life.

I don't see ID or gender as that one dimensional. Apoc has on a dress, so she must be a Betty Crocker, muffin baking, bottom, stay at home mom (Dog Forbid.) Not that there is anything wrong with that, but I have never wanted that....and I am not even going to go into how the kids might turn out.

Even in my earliest days of sexual discovery and reading books with dirty parts, I saw myself as the Dude.

When my cousins and sister were collecting things in their "hope chests" and planning their weddings at age 9, I knew I would never be like them. I saw myself in neutral terms mostly, or like my sister was a girl and I was a boy, but not a regular boy....a quiet precocious boy who read and drew and listened to music. A weird girl/boy caught in a very gendered Southern Baptist hell.