[Greyson]

Your situation sounds like PTSD stuff. I'm not any sort of a psychotherapist but I am a survior in many ways. Auto accidents have been a fact of life for me. None of the accidents I have been in were my fault. I have been rear ended, T-Boned, ran smack into a telephone pole, hit by a fairly slow moving automobile in a parking lot, on and on.

I learned how to drive at the age of 15 on Los Angeles freeways and local roads. This in and of itself is great "nerves of steel" training. One thing that does really challenge me is riding a bike in traffic. I was hit by a bus riding a bike and to this day, I get very stressed when I or loved ones ride a bicycle in traffic.

I've had a couple of "incidents" as a passenger on a SF Muni bus and a bus in Los Angeles. Alas, those are stories for another time.