[Soft*Silver]

I hate my junkie itch I get when I take my meds.

I am a big baby online when it comes to being sick. But in person, I am so afraid to ask for care. Here, I can feel free to pout and be inpatient and whine and sometimes even cry over being sick but in person, I have a stiff upper lip and I carry on, unless people literally take me to the couch and make me stop trying to pretend I am not.

I am so afraid that if I need care, no one will be there to want to give it to me

and this came out of it actually happening to me so the fear isnt unfounded. Its not that way anymore but you know, when you have experienced trauma, PTSD brings it around and around...

its my issue and I am working on it...