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dark_crystal · 10-19-2010, 08:23 AM

education- achieved, success- achieved, family- at peace, personal life?????

*sigh*

i wish i hadn't spent 23 years going in ever-tighter, -faster, -wilder, and -riskier circles; but i am thankful for finally seeing the path to- and understanding the neccessity of- owning my choices and seeing how those choices have created my circumstances, and therefore how i have chosen my circumstances.

specifically- after breakdown and hospitalization at the age of 17, i was asked by my parents at my release whether i wanted to continue my treatment. i chose not to. that means i have to re-do it all now and it is BEYOND IRRITATING to have to put my life on hold at the age of 40!

i must now allow that owning this, while it removes the ultimate responsibility from the negligent caregivers of my youth, does not mean that i did not have the right to expect more.

specifically- it is reasonable to expect that parents of a recently suicidal/hospitalized 17-year-old might not have left the decision about whether to continue treatment up to her.

verdict: i am not where i wish i was, but i am headed in the right direction and making real, concrete, verified-by-treatment-team progress every single day.

10-19-2010, 08:23 AM	#6
dark_crystal Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: jenny Preferred Pronoun?: babygirl Relationship Status: First Lady of the United SMH Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: Houston, Texas Posts: 5,445 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,532 Thanked 26,550 Times in 4,688 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	education- achieved, success- achieved, family- at peace, personal life????? sigh i wish i hadn't spent 23 years going in ever-tighter, -faster, -wilder, and -riskier circles; but i am thankful for finally seeing the path to- and understanding the neccessity of- owning my choices and seeing how those choices have created my circumstances, and therefore how i have chosen my circumstances. specifically- after breakdown and hospitalization at the age of 17, i was asked by my parents at my release whether i wanted to continue my treatment. i chose not to. that means i have to re-do it all now and it is BEYOND IRRITATING to have to put my life on hold at the age of 40! i must now allow that owning this, while it removes the ultimate responsibility from the negligent caregivers of my youth, does not mean that i did not have the right to expect more. specifically- it is reasonable to expect that parents of a recently suicidal/hospitalized 17-year-old might not have left the decision about whether to continue treatment up to her. verdict: i am not where i wish i was, but i am headed in the right direction and making real, concrete, verified-by-treatment-team progress every single day. __________________