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Jet · 10-20-2010, 11:58 AM

Sam,
I think you're really blessed to be so free and excited about this change in your life, and I'm very happy for you. We'll have to get together after you have your surgery. I've stopped T after 15 weeks. The only changes are more body hair and my voice. I had a long talk about health with the doctor i saw about my shoulder and prescriptions and so forth. I went to a gay/gay friendly practice and I felt very comfortable. He was concerned that I wasn't involved with a trans support group which I probably should have been.

At bothers me that, at 54, I feel bound by family and jobs. I came to the conclusion that I don't think I can face my family or tell them in a way that they could understand. This isn't etched in stone by any means, but it's a huge stumbling block for me. I'm gun shy because I've been in one physical fight with an uncle and I've never forgotten it.

The other thing that weighs heavily is the kind of work I do. I'm in the communications industry and I'm trying my damnedest to go from freelancing to a full-time position as a senior designer or art director. The market sucks, the competition is high and I don't want to jeopardize my chances of landing a job. Being a designer in advertising involves working with 3rd party clients. and it's always about impressing them and selling them on concepts. That's if I work at an agency. If I work corporate side, which I have, there's that uptight structure that's always there in PR and marketing. It's a very different baby and a difficult one.

I don't think I was as prepared as I should be. I miss taking T because even the minor changes that I gone through, I like. I haven't given up the idea and time will tell. I just think it would be better if I went through the change after I get a job. I could work out of the industry, but after 30 some years of being in the field, it's all I know.

I'm also working through an 18 year bout with severe PTSD. Now, I feel more like myself than I have in years. This is about coming back after such long dark struggle. What saddens me is that if things hadn't happened to me, I'm sure I would be much more ready to go through a transition. I was TG when TG wasn't even heard of in my 20s and 30s. Now it's at the forefront and I'm not able to go through it—at least not right now. Life is damn funny.

So Sam, I think you're very blessed and I'm happy that you don't have these kinds of obstacles. Best to you, bro.

10-20-2010, 11:58 AM	#255
Jet Timed Out - TOS Drama How Do You Identify?: .. Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: .. Posts: 3,471 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 292 Thanked 2,647 Times in 1,293 Posts Rep Power: 0	Sam, I think you're really blessed to be so free and excited about this change in your life, and I'm very happy for you. We'll have to get together after you have your surgery. I've stopped T after 15 weeks. The only changes are more body hair and my voice. I had a long talk about health with the doctor i saw about my shoulder and prescriptions and so forth. I went to a gay/gay friendly practice and I felt very comfortable. He was concerned that I wasn't involved with a trans support group which I probably should have been. At bothers me that, at 54, I feel bound by family and jobs. I came to the conclusion that I don't think I can face my family or tell them in a way that they could understand. This isn't etched in stone by any means, but it's a huge stumbling block for me. I'm gun shy because I've been in one physical fight with an uncle and I've never forgotten it. The other thing that weighs heavily is the kind of work I do. I'm in the communications industry and I'm trying my damnedest to go from freelancing to a full-time position as a senior designer or art director. The market sucks, the competition is high and I don't want to jeopardize my chances of landing a job. Being a designer in advertising involves working with 3rd party clients. and it's always about impressing them and selling them on concepts. That's if I work at an agency. If I work corporate side, which I have, there's that uptight structure that's always there in PR and marketing. It's a very different baby and a difficult one. I don't think I was as prepared as I should be. I miss taking T because even the minor changes that I gone through, I like. I haven't given up the idea and time will tell. I just think it would be better if I went through the change after I get a job. I could work out of the industry, but after 30 some years of being in the field, it's all I know. I'm also working through an 18 year bout with severe PTSD. Now, I feel more like myself than I have in years. This is about coming back after such long dark struggle. What saddens me is that if things hadn't happened to me, I'm sure I would be much more ready to go through a transition. I was TG when TG wasn't even heard of in my 20s and 30s. Now it's at the forefront and I'm not able to go through it—at least not right now. Life is damn funny. So Sam, I think you're very blessed and I'm happy that you don't have these kinds of obstacles. Best to you, bro.