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Old 12-16-2009, 02:36 PM   #57
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Originally Posted by SuperFemme View Post
I am wondering how one can be one of these whilst being differenlty abled?

Whether by trauma, illness or chemical imbalance working through a day can be hard work. Some of have to process a lot and use compensation strategies for the things we CANNOT do.

It really chaps my hide when somebody comes along and declares someone who is D/A a victim. Usually it is somebody who wasn't able to victimize a D/A person lashing out.

Has anyone had this experience? Have you felt like you never live up to what others say you should?
HEY, SuperMama!!!!! There ya are! Hi. Hope your holidays are in gear.

So, I was "in one of my head episodes" well, for... it's been around two weeks now. Off and on, but I had bumped my head somewhere here at the cabin. I remember that, but not where... And now the "period cycle" is coming/kicking in - many of us have flare-ups with our problems during this chemistry change in our bodies. I know you know this. Smile

BUT, I was messed up and confused. Sugar. I had to run out and take care of some business and I just told everyone, "I am confused right now in case it seems like I am struggling". Problem solving was NUTS for me. It was kind of animated too though! Smile... But, everything was so damn "complex", and seemingly out of nowhere!!

But, to your last set of questions here: I'm not sure, I don't "think so". You process so well, I know it is not without great effort at times though. But, my fear IS that I will be judged, yes. (That I was "headed for greatness and such a sad thing this happened", yaddy-yadda...) I feel like other special things kicked in for this "experience" having happened. But, it did stop "in my tracks" - and change direction most definitely from where I was at. (Bereavement at it's finest hour. Wink.)

I took my 80 year old father to PT this summer and noticed right away that his therapist was challenged. He did not notice, nor did my mother who is super observant. She had a stroke I think (or perhaps a BD), and I could see her processing things - both verbally and movement wise. I felt very proud of her, actually... amazing I thought she was! She is a young mother who lives now in my old hometown - where my parents live (out in the woods a bit, really... a kindred spirit).
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Did you see that another thread was started on PTSD? I could really relate with that from back in the day - well, and these past two weeks or so TOO! I'm feeling like I need to keep my responses to just one thread primarily though. AS, someone notes there (and I think I already did earlier HERE), "this is such vulnerable" stuff for [some of] us.

So, it's the holidays. The best way to deal with those, for me - was/is to just "not deal" some years. That is WAY easier! (No crowds if you're not shopping... )

OK! Long enough for now. Welcome back SuperFemme!!!

Hugs to ya!

WILDCAT

*ETA: Is "challenged" OK to say? I mean no offense... (At one time that was the PC term.) I totally get "differently-abled". I just say whatever and want to know. Thanks.
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