[perfekly_flawed]

I'm not sure why - but reading ya'lls messages of support have really touched me deeply... I am blessed in that I have a loving family and the support of offline friends.

I know that I'm not alone. But - to find a community that already proclaimed (by joining the site) that they "get me" on some level is so affirming and to know with certainty that at least SOME ONE will hear me and not be so quick to dismiss my pain by saying "pull up your garter belt and move on"... Plus my friends tend to judge my ex and remind me of the bad. Which, is what those that love you do - but in a way it is dismissing as well.

Yes, she has issues and her issues caused me pain, humiliation and a host of other unhealthy consequences. I woke up and saw that no longer working for me - but it does NOT negate how deeply I loved her or the depth in which our lives were intertwined. But, my friends seem to think by merely reminding myself of the bad - I won't miss her or ache for what was my LIFE just 3 months ago.

Thank you to everyone for welcoming me and helping me by being receptive to my need to vent - both on the forum and in PMs.

To Paposeco: I am too new here to be aware of anything really. I won't presume to understand how you are feeling in saying goodbye to us. But, I will encourage you to keep in mind that just ONE positive person or influence in your life can be enough to outweigh the bad karma of those that are less-than positive. And I hope you won't be gone for good.

Thanks again, all.