ive been doing alot of thinking about being single. this is the longest time i have ever stayed single and it has made me realize how happy i am. it has given me time to work on issues like health and weight and a few personilaty flaws without input from anyone else. i used to run around thinking im nobody unless i had a g/f .. when in fact i have been able to say i am somebody on my own and a very important somebody.. im someone that deserves the best i can give not 100% but 110%. this single time has allowed me to structure my life exactly how i want it to be and not do the "ok this will do" thing. it has given me a better idea of who i would like to share my life with if she should ever come my way. it has also given me the strenght not to rush into something just to feel i belong. i know where i belong and what i need for me. i just wish i had learned this at a much younger age. it would have saved alot of heartach for myself and others. my younger years were spent impressing everyone else instead of myself that left a dissatisfied self being even when i thought i was happy. grrrr my thoughts are rambling this morning!
|