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Originally Posted by Miss Scarlett
Am completely stressed out this morning - likely a product of my own imagination.
Why am I stressed? Next week I will be on vacation. This is my first actual vacation from work in about 5 years. My last 2 vacations were tied in with losing my job either immediately before or shortly after my return. Both times my job was being eliminated - because one firm was closing and the other decided to move away from my area of expertise.
My current boss has gone through many assistants over the last few years. I have been there for 1 1/2 years and can do far more than past assistants. But I am far from perfect. No major screw ups but minor errors and mistakes - some from ignorance or lack of clairvoyant abilities, and others from my lack of diligence. But my work is not behind and I have been double and triple checking everything to make sure nothing that she needs next week is left undone.
My boss is not much of a communicator and I am not much of a mind reader. I hope to talk with her today, confirm my time off next week and see if there is anything else she needs me to do before the end of this week.
I'm fighting this stress and trying to keep it from having a negative effect on my job performance, but it is very distracting.
I wish I could talk with my Mom about it - this is adding to my stress too.
Jeez!
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Good morning Miss S
Glad you were at least able to write about it here.
Is it that fear of the unknown grabbing you by the throat due to being shot at in the past? Is a zinger going to hit me when I am not looking, if I don't have my radar on?
Being a past survivor of many wars, battles, and just misunderstandings I say two things to myself.
1. I am only in control of
Myself, and my thinking. I cannot control what others think or do (They). What can I do is be the best I can and undo this garbage thinking.
2. This is the moment of a new day. It is not the day and time that something horrible happened in the past. I can breathe in and out on my own, and stop thinking about what THEY may be or do.
I miss my Mom too, so come here to chat with ya'll.
RIP Mickey Mom