The thoughts that run through my head and get ranted about on my LJ...
I feel I have been a good mom, I have loved her and been there when she needed me most, even those times when she thought I wasn't there. I have waited in the wings while she figured stuff out for herself because she didn't need my help because she knew what she was doing. Isn't that funny, we bring them into this world only to be told time and time again that they don't need us. So we step back and watch them stumble and fall, biting our tongues as we watch them struggle to regain some solid ground. It is like watching them learn how to walk again, you are scared and excited all in the same moment as they teeter and totter back and forth. Gaining independence as they move along in this crazy world. while I whispered a silent prayer to whoever was listening and was protecting you. *Keep her safe, but let her learn, and bring her back when she is done.* I never knew that being a mom was going to be so joyful and so painful all at the same time. One thing I have learned is that you can never love them enough to keep them safe and free from heartache...
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