I confess that...
...I am really, really bone tired.
...I am especially tired of being sick...more than 2 weeks of coughing has given me a strained something up by my shoulder blade...and the two together makes it hard to sleep.
...I get frustrated when people say "you should take this med or that"...I'm diabetic, and on medication for blood pressure, diabetes, triglycerides, etc. I can seriously mess myself up with OTC stuff unless my doctor approves it. Even then, I worry about drug interactions...even with the prescribed stuff.
...seeing "floaters" when we were at the beach has me worried about my eyesight again. Intellectually I know it had to do with the bright sunlight, but going blind isn't on my "to do" list. Of all the complications that can and do come with diabetes, blindness is the one that scares me the most...and the one I'm most likely to have to deal with at some point.
...I envy people who have the expectation that others can and will take care of them and cater to their desires...and especially envy those who have it happen in their lives.
...I am so, so, so incredibly grateful for my job...and for this wonderful company that employs me.
...I sometimes feel like everything is a battle...and I'm too tired to fight.
...I internalize the negativity of others...and self-harm by scratching at myself....especially on my face. Not lovely. And not quick to heal because of the diabetes.
...today was probably not a good day to post in the confession thread.
