[sylvie]

Tommi, your post really hit a chord with me..
empty junk food stuff but tossing out the healthy stuff.. been there, done that and do it.. i agree, about not having it in the house, this grocery order just the other day, i bought nothing that i seriously crave (potato chips, chocolate, etc) and bought everything healthy, snacks included...
and it's quite amusing to myself, how often i go to the kitchen, look through my cupboards and fridge, and think to myself, wow, there's nothing i want.. the fridge and cupboards are full, though.. my next thought is, hmmm.. i 'could' go to the corner store.. my mind is so trained to want the damn junk food, it's like it's calling my name from the store, it's sad..
this is why i feel like i am retraining myself, or struggling to.. its what i call my 'stinkin thinkin'.. i think the fact we're recognizing these things, speaks volumes to me..that i'm willing to see this is bad for me, and the thinking pattern isn't right..because a few months ago, i would have fought for my right for the junkfood, it was a need and no one was going to tell me any different...

i figured if they couldn't see it, then it was okay.. i'm very much an at home binger, so much so ive pushed people out of my life in the past because i didn't want people to know what i was doing, or the amount of weight i was gaining.. i would even avoid people i knew if i 'had' to go out in public for anything and came across someone, lol.. i'm venturing off topic here somehow..

but i can really, really, relate to what you are saying.. the things we try to tell ourselves so that it's okay.. today 'is' a new day, everyday is.. and you just soooo helped me feel better about my post even.. thank you for telling yours too.. have a great swim, and a great day!