Welcome Damselfly. Your name is beautiful. I'm not very active on this thread but I do keep up with the posts. Your entry strikes a chord with me today. I'm in the same space as you right now. I'm surprised that I still long for that special butch to be in my life. However, I seem to have drifted toward those who are emotionally unavailable. I want a different kind of lover in my life now as I get older. I turned 60 in January and am retired. Recently, I've had to deal with helping to care for someone in my family who has been very sick, my older sister. It's been a life lesson on aging. It's hard because I feel as though I'm not finished with the lessons of youth and middle age and now I have to start to learn even more and different stuff. It's inevitable, I know, and hopefully will get easier. Betty Davis gave us what I now think is the wisest quote: "Old age, it's not for sissies." Hang in there Damsel, there's more to come.
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