This is my truth - I am me. Nobody can walk in my shoes. Nor would I ever ask them too. I live as Andrew. I have a dog, Dino, who is sickly as I am. I also have 3 cats. I have squirrels, Hank and Honey. They have 2 kids, Henry and Henrietta. I feed them every day. I feed the birds every day. It is just how I am. It brings me joy to have a woodpecker come to the window and look inside to see if I have my coffee yet because Hank has eaten all the peanuts, and he needs his handfull.
Rejection, harsh criticism, and judgement has been my childhood background. I know now that my father has company with other people who are just mean and nasty. It is the way of the world. That is why I am so very guarded now as an adult. For example, look at road rage. I never thought I would see drivers crossing a double yellow line to pass drivers in front of them for whatever reason. Another example, look at our court system. Pedifiles, drunk drivers, drive by shooters who kill others get out of a jail term or lost in the system for whatever reason. They seem to walk away scott free. And there is little to no remorse. I just don't get that at all. Never will.
My truth lies in my faith and spirituality. I believe in trying to always turn the other cheek. To be a forgiving man. To be open to others. It has taken me years to get to this point, but now that I am here I am free-er than I ever imagined to be.
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