[Sachita]

Is this the bitch forum? lol

I busted my ass launching new projects. For two months I planned on summer help, a few good friends that said they'd come for 6 months and work for me. I would give them room and board, a stipend and the would learn some things they wanted to learn. Now its 3 fucking days before they are suppose to arrive and I get an email with some lame ass excuse. I hate excuses. If you had a change of heart just say so. Also if you're such a good friend why wait last minute knowing everything I have going on?

The hired helped I have been using, another queer, can't decide if she wants to work or not. I don't hear from her for days and then I get a text acting as if she's been waiting for me. lol it's a stupid game she plays and I'm beginning to realize she's just not that smart.

Let's see..... I'm stressed because of the happenings in the world. I was feeling great and then this Japan thing happens and I feel like I felt after 9-11. Uncertain, fearful and confused. I feel it all over my body. I try to live in the moment but my body won't let me. I can not allow this to defeat me.