[Soft*Silver]

I look at photos of myself prior to the surgery. My body size is so different. I thought back then that I looked like I do now. But I was much larger. Funny how we distort our body image.

I am trying to envision what its going to be like thinner. Someone put in my face that something I did was exploitive of women. Damn I didnt see it then but I had to examine it and didnt like what I had to own. And its rooted in getting thin. I am struggling with it...and all it means to me, as me as a thin person.

just more for my next therapy session.....