Evening all...
Oh morningstar... atlanta huh.. wishin I was THERE and not HERE.
Zimmy, good luck on that job interview!!
Well, saw my ex again and this time we talked about our break up. First REAL conversation we have had since it all ended. Lots of tears, yes it was for the best, still don't like HOW it ended, got no real answers to that.... glad we talked, but right now, I am just thinking, that if I can't make it with her, then who the hell will I be able to have a relationship with. We were so compatable on so many levels, her excess bagage from her previous relationship (long and very bad) keeps her from giving me what I need.. A real, loving, committed relationship. I don't do half ass.. ever. Feeling very sad. Not too many ppl around her that I have NOT met. Sooooo I'm thinking, sadly, that I may be alone for a very long time, maybe always. Is it a bad thing to want it all? I want someone who loves me, only me, and who makes me her world just as I would make her mine. I want to be in a relationship where we can't wait to see each other... want to be together. Not nessasarily tied at the hip, don't have to be together 24/7 if you know what I mean, but I want someone who misses me when I'm gone. Who would rather do things with me than anyone else. Still have our friends, our interests, together and apart... but I want someone as devoted to me as I am her. Is that really too much to ask? I want the ceremony, I want the white picket fence, I want a LIFE with someone! Feeling blue... maybe tomorrow will be a brighter day.
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