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sylvie · 05-05-2011, 06:23 AM

my teenagers -

my daughter, B - coming home from school day before yesterday & saying how when she was at school, she thought of everything she's put me through since Christmas, and felt really heartbroken, because she loves me so much - and that she's sorry.. our really sweet talk, that followed & then some girl time, laughs, silly television, and an oven mitt fight in the kitchen, lol.. regardless of how tough single parenting can be, i will never stop believing in her, even when a majority of the people in my life already have.. i love these moments that remind me WHY i stay in her corner..

my son, A - his asking if we could have a serious talk - and was scared to hurt my feelers.. his plans for this summer, and although the thought of my son moving makes me so incredibly sad - seeing him acting so responsibly and having everything so carefully thought out - being so genuinely sweet and asking me for hugs and telling me everything would be okay - and his excitement about his future surely makes me see that the 18 years i've spent raising this boy (these children, even) on my own - i've really done okay.. Deep down i am happy for his excitement and i know he would be moving for university soon in 2 years anyway, i just didn't expect this so soon.. i keep my sadness within for now, because i'm having a hard time processing all of this - but for him, i'll continue being his biggest cheerleader.. because i'm his mother and i love him and i know with everything i taught him over the years, he's got this!

-- BIG changes, aren't easy to swallow.. and i'm sure i'll have my emotional mess moments, but what it all boils down to is, i have 2 super children with a heart of gold, who have ambitions and the courage to follow their dreams, the ability to confide in me and trust that i'll always have their backs, and who are responsible enough to process their thoughts & see the big picture - consider people's feelings , but have enough confidence to follow through for themselves, because THEY feel important enough...

how can a momma be sad about THAT.. i did damn good.

05-05-2011, 06:23 AM	#5878
sylvie Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Mr Mtn's babygirl Preferred Pronoun?: girly, she Relationship Status: fiercely protected ♥ Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: Moving home in OR with Him VERY soooon !! Posts: 2,548 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,834 Thanked 7,501 Times in 1,850 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	my teenagers - my daughter, B - coming home from school day before yesterday & saying how when she was at school, she thought of everything she's put me through since Christmas, and felt really heartbroken, because she loves me so much - and that she's sorry.. our really sweet talk, that followed & then some girl time, laughs, silly television, and an oven mitt fight in the kitchen, lol.. regardless of how tough single parenting can be, i will never stop believing in her, even when a majority of the people in my life already have.. i love these moments that remind me WHY i stay in her corner.. my son, A - his asking if we could have a serious talk - and was scared to hurt my feelers.. his plans for this summer, and although the thought of my son moving makes me so incredibly sad - seeing him acting so responsibly and having everything so carefully thought out - being so genuinely sweet and asking me for hugs and telling me everything would be okay - and his excitement about his future surely makes me see that the 18 years i've spent raising this boy (these children, even) on my own - i've really done okay.. Deep down i am happy for his excitement and i know he would be moving for university soon in 2 years anyway, i just didn't expect this so soon.. i keep my sadness within for now, because i'm having a hard time processing all of this - but for him, i'll continue being his biggest cheerleader.. because i'm his mother and i love him and i know with everything i taught him over the years, he's got this! -- BIG changes, aren't easy to swallow.. and i'm sure i'll have my emotional mess moments, but what it all boils down to is, i have 2 super children with a heart of gold, who have ambitions and the courage to follow their dreams, the ability to confide in me and trust that i'll always have their backs, and who are responsible enough to process their thoughts & see the big picture - consider people's feelings , but have enough confidence to follow through for themselves, because THEY feel important enough... how can a momma be sad about THAT.. i did damn good. __________________ my Mantra: i am letting go of angers, continuing to find forgiveness, welcoming inner peace & deserving of it all. my facebook weight loss page: http://www.facebook.com/asyllyjourney