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ruthie14 · 05-07-2011, 08:51 AM

Andrew.. Came on today to bump this thread only to find you already had! THANKS soooo much!

This weekend is proving harder than I thought it would be. Keeping busy with friends. Went out last night and a lesbian couple I know brought out thier baby girl. Tiny little thing. Sweet as can be. Held her for a while and was ok at that time, but now all I can think about is why did God forget about me. I teach 1 years olds everyday.... see more neglect than I care to think about . I believe in God, but He is gonna have to fill me in on this decision of His when I see Him.

Step children still not talking to me. I expect no phone call or card to come from anyone. I have mothered hundreds in my life, yet mother to no one. Breaks my heart.

I will go out today to the farmers market I love which just opened for the season today. Get my nails done. Then go to a friends house for the Kentucky derby.

Tomorrow I will have to put up a good front for my Mom.. stiff upper lip. Smile as my heart is breaking. I will do my best... hopefully it will be good enough.

05-07-2011, 08:51 AM	#8
ruthie14 Member How Do You Identify?: femme Preferred Pronoun?: she Join Date: Feb 2010 Location: NJ Posts: 844 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,904 Thanked 1,245 Times in 461 Posts Rep Power: 5946335	Andrew.. Came on today to bump this thread only to find you already had! THANKS soooo much! This weekend is proving harder than I thought it would be. Keeping busy with friends. Went out last night and a lesbian couple I know brought out thier baby girl. Tiny little thing. Sweet as can be. Held her for a while and was ok at that time, but now all I can think about is why did God forget about me. I teach 1 years olds everyday.... see more neglect than I care to think about . I believe in God, but He is gonna have to fill me in on this decision of His when I see Him. Step children still not talking to me. I expect no phone call or card to come from anyone. I have mothered hundreds in my life, yet mother to no one. Breaks my heart. I will go out today to the farmers market I love which just opened for the season today. Get my nails done. Then go to a friends house for the Kentucky derby. Tomorrow I will have to put up a good front for my Mom.. stiff upper lip. Smile as my heart is breaking. I will do my best... hopefully it will be good enough.