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Camo Eagle · 05-12-2011, 09:17 PM

I knew as soon as I could think. LOL As a toddler I told people I was a boy when people ask.
I remember the summer my chest started to dev. I was distraught, & thought about suicide many times. I moved a lot as a foster child, and usually spent most of my time just trying to survive, bc I ran away at a young age. That didnt leave a lot of time to really think about it.
It really was rough in the Army, watching all the guys get to do the things I wanted to do, but was denied simply bc I was in a female shell.
Yrs later in the Air Force, I was treated much more equal, and became the "first" to do many things because I "was" in a female shell.
I tried to make the most of the body I had, but I hated it. I had NO idea I would ever be able to change it.
Then in the Medical field I met my first trans person. A lovely MTF that had been in a car accident. I visited her many times and she taught me quite a lot, but this was pre internet days, so info was still hard to get.
Then I joined the "dash site" in 99, and learned a lot more, but didnt spend much time on the site.
Then I migrated to "the next" site, where I was a reg. I met a wonderful couple & many others that steered me in the right info directions. Then with the web it was easy and a no brainer decision for me to transition.
My big hurdle was getting all the medical conditions and Drs to agree that the surgeries & hormones wouldnt kill me.
1.5 - 2 yrs ago I had top surgery. I just passed my 1 yr on injectable T. Ive never been happier. I so regret not being able to do it earlier, but I do believe everything happens when its supposed too.

05-12-2011, 09:17 PM	#4
Camo Eagle Member How Do You Identify?: FTM in these communities. Male in everyday & public life. Preferred Pronoun?: He/Him Relationship Status: Unavailable Join Date: Dec 2010 Location: Texas Posts: 241 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 268 Thanked 328 Times in 152 Posts Rep Power: 2982903	I knew as soon as I could think. LOL As a toddler I told people I was a boy when people ask. I remember the summer my chest started to dev. I was distraught, & thought about suicide many times. I moved a lot as a foster child, and usually spent most of my time just trying to survive, bc I ran away at a young age. That didnt leave a lot of time to really think about it. It really was rough in the Army, watching all the guys get to do the things I wanted to do, but was denied simply bc I was in a female shell. Yrs later in the Air Force, I was treated much more equal, and became the "first" to do many things because I "was" in a female shell. I tried to make the most of the body I had, but I hated it. I had NO idea I would ever be able to change it. Then in the Medical field I met my first trans person. A lovely MTF that had been in a car accident. I visited her many times and she taught me quite a lot, but this was pre internet days, so info was still hard to get. Then I joined the "dash site" in 99, and learned a lot more, but didnt spend much time on the site. Then I migrated to "the next" site, where I was a reg. I met a wonderful couple & many others that steered me in the right info directions. Then with the web it was easy and a no brainer decision for me to transition. My big hurdle was getting all the medical conditions and Drs to agree that the surgeries & hormones wouldnt kill me. 1.5 - 2 yrs ago I had top surgery. I just passed my 1 yr on injectable T. Ive never been happier. I so regret not being able to do it earlier, but I do believe everything happens when its supposed too.